Monday, June 1st, 2003

School is going to end in 2 weeks and 3 days. If I'm going to get Jessica to notice me it's gonna have to be soon. I've tried talking to a few of her friends. Most of them brushed me off, but a few of them actually stopped and listened to my side of the story. Even then, they still looked pretty ticked off, but at least they know the truth. One of them actually started crying. She told me that she actually really liked the idea of Jessica and I together, but when we broke up, Jessica was so upset they didn't know what to do.

Ivonne keeps bugging me too...Damn, it's really annoying. I kinda feel sorry for her though. I mean, there has to be that someone out there for her too, but she's too focused on one problem to go out and look for that person. I hope one day she does find him.

Thursday, June 5th, 2003

Shingo felt like coming to the Speed Stars shop and personally challenging me in the next solo race this Saturday. I was kinda amazed that this guy keeps going at it, but the many mechanics at the shop with their huge wrenches and assorted other tools quickly convinced him otherwise. He told me he'd get me back for everything I did. I shruged. Here's another guy who really needs a hobby.

While I was at the shop another of Jessica's friends, David, came to see me. He said that Jessica was really feeling bad, and that I needed to do something about it. When I told him that I had been and how I really felt, he seemed to understand. He's gonna try to arrange something so that Jessica will see me. I hope she will soon. I know this is killing me, and I can imagine it's doing the same to her.

Saturday, June 7th, 2003.

I lost the race today, and pretty badly too. I got 6th. Shingo got 3rd. He lost to a couple of drifters from Japan who came to this event. I've really gotta get my head back in the game. I had trouble focusing on the run I had today. I mean, normally I just do it and don't give it a second thought. But other thoughts kept bugging me as I drove. Damn.

David said that Jessica was gonna go to an award ceremony on Tuesday night to recieve a medal for maintaining a 3.8 grade point average. After, she would be walking home, and that would be my chance to talk to her. I won't blow this...I couldn't. I know things will work themselves out.

I also heard this song today, I've known it for years but it's never fit more than now.

All My Life
by K-Ci and JoJo

Baby, baby, baby, baby, baby
Baby, baby, baby, baby, baby
Baby, Ooh, I'm so glad

I will never find another lover
Sweeter than you
Sweeter than you
And I will never find another lover
More precious than you
More precious than you

Girl you are
Close to me, like my mother
Close to me, like my father
Close to me, like my sister
Close to me, like my brother
You are the only one, my everything
And for you this song I sing, and

All my life
I prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I
That I finally found you

All my life
I prayed for someone like you
And I hope that you
Feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do love me too

I said, you're all that I'm thinking of
Baby
Said I promise to never
Fall in love with a stranger
You're all I'm thinking of
I praise the Lord above
For sending me your love
I cherish every hug
I really love you

All my life
I prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I
That I finally found you

All my life
I prayed for someone like you
And I hope that you
Feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do love me too

You're all that I ever know
When you smile on my face
All I see is a glow
You turn my life around
You picked me up when I was down

You're all that I ever know
When you smile my face glows
You picked me up when I was down

You're all that I ever know
When you smile my face glows
You picked me up when I was down

And I hope that you
Feel the same way too
Yes I pray that you
Do love me too

All my life
I prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I
That I finally found you

All my life
I prayed for someone like you
Yes, I pray that you do love me too

All my life
I prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I
That I finally found you

All my life
I prayed for someone like you
And I hope that you
Feel the same way too
(repeat to fade)