I want to know what's going on-

What's going on with you

Everytime I try calling

I never seem to get through to you

I want to know what you're thinking-

What you're thinking about

Everytime I try to read your mind

It never really seems to work out

I want to understand-

To understand everything there is to

know about you

I want to be the strand-

The strand that holds together the truth

I want to be the one-

The one that makes your face light up

I want to see you run-

To see you run to me with all your love

If only you could see me the way I wish

you would

Then you would learn to love me-

then life would be good

If only you would give me just a moment

of your time

Then, I'm sure I could make it worth your

while- I'm sure you'd love my heart and mind

But, I don't know what's going on

And you don't see me at all

I wanted to be with you all along

I felt like maybe I could actually

make you love me- make you fall

But, you're just some fantasy

A stranger from afar

Yet, you are so beautiful to me

You're like some shining star

You seem like the perfect man

All friendly, graceful, and sincere

But, I don't even know you

I don't know what you dream about

or what you even fear

I wish you could just see me

Just stop to talk for a while

I wish you knew how much of an affect

you have on me

Just by the way your lips curve into that

simple smile

You're hair- a bit messy and curly

You're eyes- so bright and blue

You're laugh- bringing me so much happiness

You're face- so pure and true

Maybe, I'm just a bit obsessed

Maybe, this is love

But, goodness, you don't see me

Am I just not good enough?

Maybe, I am going mad!

Am I going incredibly insane?

Maybe, I'm just sad...

I just feel so inane.

I want companionship and love

And I thought I could find it in you

But, you're just a crush; a fantasy

That will probably never see me through
February 27, 2003