This is a story.

A story of my horrible thoughts.

This is my anger.

Condensed into a fanfiction.

My anger through love and life.

I want to know the truth. I need to know the truth. I, a simple perfectionist, must know the truth. This is a story of my current teenage life. This is a documentary of my confusing love life. This is my life, it belongs to me. I don’t know who I am anymore; please tell me what you think of my life. And so it begins…

Two months ago, I decided I liked a girl. No one liked her, only me. I was made fun of it, before it was true. I was very pissed. But I soon came to realize it when my anger against someone grew.

In the sixth grade, my best friend betrayed me. We met in the third grade. But at a sleepover he showed us (it was at a sleepover with other friends, I didn’t see it) porn that I didn’t know was on my Tenchi Muyo DVD. Ever since that, we hated each other. His name was Ethan. Now in seventh grade, Ethan was acting strange. He was in love. A rumor was going around the school that he liked a girl. That girl’s name was Erin. One day, 2 months ago, after all of my friends started making fun of me and Erin doing nasty things to each other, Ethan told me who he liked. When he started, I thought he was going to say Erin. A great rage grew inside of me. I knew at that moment that I liked Erin. The lie everyone said became true. Ethan finished the sentence with Devra, Erin’s best friend. I was much relieved. I decided not to tell anyone. But as you would know it, I was afraid to tell Erin. My friend CJ gave me useless counseling. I told her through AOL. She was startled. She just said ‘cool’ and logged off. It was a Friday so I didn’t get to see her at school but when I did she seemed happy.

Three weeks ago, CJ calls me up at 10:30 at night. At that time I was grounded off of AOL, but that night Erin admitted to him that she liked me. The next day I wake up early and get ready to go to school and my mom tells me to go back to bed because it was a snow day. I started cursing my ass off. There was a blizzard of 3 feet outside! But I got to go on AOL and what do you know, Erin was the only one on! I asked her if it was true and she said yes. At that moment I became a man. I felt a happiness fall over me. I felt mature. After the snow days we went back to school. We talked a little, but little did we know that we were kind of shy to talk about it in front of others. If we saw each other after school, we would flirt, a lot. Devra and Ethan found out that each of them like each other. So irony struck, Ethan and I were best friends and Devra and Erin are best friends, and we like each other! But there was another, Dan, he doesn’t want Erin and I to be BF/GF. He kept making lies about us to each other, and I started to not trust Erin. He hacked into someone else’s AOL account pretending to say that we hate each other. I got worried but everything was straightened out.

But today, Erin kind of is keeping away from me. It’s strange. Yesterday she ran right up to me with a smile on her face to tell me something. But today she seems kind of shy. I think that Devra is totally against Erin and I being together, Ethan’s evil ways have changed Devra’s pure mind. On AOL today, Erin wasn’t speaking to me much. Only a little on where we will go on our date, like what movie. But Ethan was on also, and he said that the whole time he was on Erin was talking to him about Devra’s previous Boyfriend. I felt extremely annoyed so I wrote ‘No one wants to talk to me so cya” and Erin says “ok cya”. I got REALLY pissed. I thought that she might have been more sympathetic. Unless that is how she just shows her affection. She is exactly like me: an anime/videogame freak. That is why we are really close. What do you think? Chapter 2 will come when something interesting comes up!