Today, the beginning of Lent, I learned a lot. Alls going well, until lunch. I get my lunch and sit down at my table with Erin, Devra, Ethan, and Dan. Everyone is quiet. Devra is whimpering. Ethan has his head buried in his arms. Five minutes pass before I ask why everyone is so quiet. Erin says what do you think! I didn’t know. Two minutes more passed before I asked Dan what was going on. Devra and Ethan broke up he whispered. I got freaked out. Devra started crying and Ethan hid his tears from all around him. They broke up, they refused to talk to each other. Dan took Ethan out to talk, inviting me, but I helped Devra instead. Both Erin and I tried to help her, for Ethan is my mortal enemy from the porn incident, but to no avail. Shit Devra said, I have gym with Ethan next! She started crying heavily. I knew how it felt, but even worse. My life has been tragic, just one bad event to the next, but that’s another story. Luckily for her, we had a free gym period, so I got to talk to Ethan. Many of my other friends tried to pester Ethan, who was crying like mad, but John and I kept them away. Dan, John, and I tried to help Ethan with everything. I asked him what happened, for only he, Devra, and Erin knew. He said that Devra went up to him and said that she didn’t feel that she loved him as much as she did and she just wanted to be friends with him. That was Ethan’s 5th GF lost. I could see why he was so hurt, it will take him a long time to recover. But once again, that’s another story. I tried to help Ethan through his rough time, but he refused. Dan became his messenger from him to Dev, for Ethan and her sat at the opposite ends of the room. Devra cheered up, Ethan didn’t. Gym ended and that’s when I saw what could happen to me and Erin. I didn’t want to see Erin cry, so I decided to think about telling her what I thought we should do. But I didn’t want to leave her. Through the last hour of school I was depressed, but not as much as Ethan was.

I called my Mom after coming from a Latin practice because I have The National Exam tomorrow. I tried acting cheerful, covering up my sighs by saying I think I flunked my math test. I went on AOL, Devra and Ethan was on, and Erin was at Devra’s house. Not much transpired through that time until Ethan logged off. Erin said hi, I have something to tell you. I said go ahead, ill take anything, if you’re dumping me, just say so. She said, umm I think we should just be friends. I said, I’m fine with that. And she told me how she finally built up enough courage to tell me, and also that she has been thinking to tell me this for a LONG time. I told her that I was happy that she told me the truth, I was expecting it. Surprisingly, I didn’t cry. But then she told me in her Vocal class she started to cry. She didn’t want to hurt my feelings, but she was so sad keeping it in. We both started to cry in front of our computers, if only we had Webcam. I didn’t cry much, but I was just so sad. We talked for a long time about how she also had a BF at camp, but she did like me. It was the same way with Ethan and Devra. But I didn’t care. I told her that I wouldn’t tell anyone, but I told CJ. I had to. I didn’t want to be
pissed, but I ended up almost as bad as Ethan. And also, my friend Takumi has gone TOTALLY against me. Although no one except me, CJ, Erin, and Devra knows, he was still pissed. It seemed that he was going through the same thing as I was. And that was it. Irony intervened again, us, the couples, both broke up. I AM SO FRIKIN MAD!!! I don’t know what I am to do now, tomorrow is another day for my life to ruin more. But that is another story…