Depression

Depression is something inside your brain,
It engulfes your life for a while,
All it is is solid pain,
No one can hear you scream, not for a hundred mile.
Life seems black, dark and grey,
You realise that you dont want to be here,
There is more torture day by day,
Life and darkness are your only fear.
Your body feels tight,
You are suffoctaing you might just,
I said it, I might just might,
Face up to my problems, hatred, lust.
What if I step back into the light,
Can I face the real me,
Have I the strenght to fight,
How does everyone know what I feel, they're not me.
My parents dont know me now,
I hate them, I hate me,
I say"So now mum, youre my spokesman now?"
Its them with the problem not me.
I just don't give a dam anymore,
Is it so wrong that I want to die,
I am fresh out of luck, lying on the floor,
Here try me, look through my eye.
Is the world a crueler, darker place?
Can you now feel and believe my pain?
I feel other peoples pain, look at their face,
Put me down, kill me, be inhumane.
I dont care how you do it,
With a gun, shoot me in the head,
I had my chance, I blew it,
Leave me in a pool of blood on my bed.
Dont try to argue with me, just dont,
My minds made up,
I cant give up, I wont,
I want to die, will you just shut up.
Dont even think "I'll start to cry",
I wont pay any attention to you,
Because when I die,
You'll feel my pain rushing through you.
Then you will think of the times you havent believed in me,
I saw pain and torture , No matter how hard I try,
I saw the child hanging from a tree,
I didnt cut her down, I left her to die.
Yeah, sure I made mistakes back then,
But I've faced up to them all,
I wouldnt do all that again,
I will, in the end, just fall.
Back to the Devils Pit,
To my home, the fiery funeral pier,
Here add my body to it,
Make the flames a little higher.