I want to pull and rip and tear and bite
and claw and scream at something

but that
something's unseen

So instead I pull and
rip and tear and bite and claw and scream
at me

Furthering my frustration

Escalating
this feeling

Obscuring the source

So I turn
on myself again and it hurts

It hurts so
much not to know why I hurt

I inflict more
pain because I don't know why I'm in pain

I
cry I cry more

I bleed I bleed more

I hurt
myself more because I hurt

I want to kill
this feeling inside but instead I hide
within myself to stop the murder of me and
my own sense of me

Self destructive heart
beats in contrary to itself wondering if
the echo is itself or somebody else

I am
pain in contradiction
I am confused with my
own confusion

Self destructive soul sells
itself wondering if the sadness comes from
itself or somebody else