Lost in a jungle

Of hatred, deep and thriving.

No sanity to lose,

No reason for surviving.

Without joy,

There comes despair.

Without equality,

It's no longer fair.

A desolate wasteland

Growing ever more.

And in the end,

Death knocks at your door.

My mind is clouded

With absurd thoughts.

Not of my own,

Nor what I've been taught!

I see myself

Grow to a beast!

On which the pains

Of other's I feast!

Once an Angel,

In heavenly hands.

Now a demon

Of fiery lands.

Hidden behind

An innocent mask,

Never showing

My true tasks.

And now I'm trapped,

No longer to reveal

The rage and violence

That I now feel!

I call into

Both night and day,

"My God, Forgive me!

I have gone astray!"

I chance remission

Of my dead sins,

Which I cannot undergo,

And evil wins.

I scream to myself,

"Is anyone there?

Will anyone answer

This spirit-thirsty prayer?"

This place I live,

So caught in war,

Bringing back pains

And memories sore.

It's such an injustice

To brilliant minds.

That they must be plagued upon

By different kinds.

I now surrender,

Give up my case.

This is something

I no longer can face.

Will no hope

Ever come

That lost dreams

Can gather from?

I do not know,

And never will.

It's something

Only light can fill.