Hope
When I saw your smile I really thought it was true, that it could be me and you.

But then I saw it was just my denial, my crazy thoughts that are never true.

But of course I needed some hope and I thought that I could cope, but I didn't see that you wanted nothing with me, when I finely found out, it was all about how you diss like me, and how we can never be.

Now that I have time to think I see that I was foolish to believe that there could be something as you and me. but like I said before I cannot lose my hope that someday you and I can cope.

But yet again when I think I'm clear in these thought about you, I realize that this isn't true, what I thought was painfully real was just imagined and was never meant for you to feel.

Now that I have felt that loss I can no longer feel my best because with or without you I have no boss. my Body is not my own, it is not where I feel, for that is yours alone, whether or not you care for me to reveal.

Every one says there will be others and its just a phase, but I look away and hope and pray that you are in fact what is meant for me, now that I see what is painfully real, I wish that it was never reviled.

Today I'm still lost with out you, for your words have stung very true, you may not have noticed or seen with your eyes, but my soul has been deprived, it has lost that special spark that little thing that makes me, me.

For that was forever taken by you that day you rejected me, it may not have been direct, but in my head I know it does not have to be said, that you and I will never be, because that's all that will ever be for me, forgotten memories, and lost hope, that I will not be able to cope.