"August 26th

All too often I clutter things up with words to spoil the mood of a situation, always in an attempt to say something I truly mean but know not how to express. I possess not the eloquence I desire to be able to say what I feel without hesitance or fear of embarrassment. That is why I write in this journal to you, for only on paper could I ever say what I mean. Only on paper could I bid my heart be silent and my thoughts still. Because when I look into your eyes, neither will obey my word, and the feeling spreads like wildfire, finally coming to rest as the day's last glowing embers, a gentle comfort in my dreams throughout the night. That radiance holds my demons at bay, even when Lucifer himself would see me lost in the enveloping darkness.

I don't think I could ever find the words to say exactly what you are to me, how much you mean to me and the weight you carry upon my heart. You fill my every waking thought with a smile, an undescribable joy, a light to shine away the darkness and a hand to guide me by. Quite literally you are my light, my guide, my star -- always a beacon for me to look to. You are the brightest star in the sky, shining always with a steady comfort and assurance.

Though I speak only the truth, there are, nevertheless, bad things. There must always be a dark side in order to have something good -- a balance of ying and yang, so to speak. That is what this is... acceptance, but not overlooking, those less-admirable qualities to allow the better to shine through. I don't push you to somewhere you can't or are not ready to go, I will not shove you into something you don't want. I will simply take your hand, and we will go together to where we please and achieve those ends. Two halves of the same whole... and when together, we can do anything and go anywhere. We can conquer all challenges and overcome all obstacles.

It's ridiculous to think that such a feeling could ever be described by mortal words, and even more foolish to think that it could tackle all boundaries. But that's what you do to me -- I'm happier than I've ever been in my life when I'm with you, and I couldn't bear to think of a future that you're not in. So few have something such as us, and even fewer recognize it before it flees. To not have you by me always would be admitting stoicism... and allowing a void to fill your place. Emptiness and hurt, both in blinding force... We may be young, but that is not a reason to give up to petty difficulties. I wouldn't want anyone else by me, now or ever.

I promise not to make promises that I know I may not be able to keep. I will try not to harm you in any way, for you are more to me than the world itself and all its possessions and people contained within. I say this because I don't know if I can always keep from causing you heartache... and that is a promise I would hate to break.

I just... melt... at the sound of your voice; the one sound I would rather hear than anything else in the world. You do something to me that no one else ever has, and I doubt ever could... You set my heart aflame, but you silence my soul. In simple terms, you refresh my mind and senses, you shield me from all pain and evil... You make me feel...

Alive..."

The cold moonlight spilled through the clear glass window panes, completely unrestrained as the clock ticked to midnight. Her hair, dark as a raven's wing, framed her pale face as she leaned over the journal, scribbling away furiously.

Her lips curved into a smile just as she closed the book, putting her pen away. She placed it in a drawer, blew out the candle, and then left the room.

He would never know.