Eek, I see I haven't written for awhile. I hope somebody likes this, besides me -- I'm really proud of it, even though it's kinda starting to bother me. I haven't even thought of writing music for a long time, and it's been a nice break. If anyone cares, this took much longer than I expected it to, and I actually sung it before sharing it with the whole world. But if my parents found this, they'd take me to a room with padded walls. I have issues; and lucky for me, I also have the internet! (LOL: "I have Cox!" Say it out loud, preferably at a feminist convention in northern Iraq.)

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Who lets my heart beat
Aimless and lonely?
Dreaded and Coldly?
Aimless and shameless and broken,
Wearing down when I want it no more

I'm... I'm still running from shadows
Reflections in the windows
Images of myself

I'm... I'm still lying to mother
Blinded not by my father
Wounded only by shame

Fighting to stop these deep breaths
Wanting to end this madness
Shedding blood with an excess
Of razor blades and patience

I'm... I'm... still running from shadows
Reflections in the windows
Images of myself

I'm... I'm still lying to mother
Blinded not by my father
Wounded only by shame

Blinking calmly with red eyes
Stilling slowly with dead, dead hope
Hoping for a perfect end
Living now in this final attempt

I'm still running from shadows!
Reflections in the windows
I'm still lying to mother
Guilty with my own self-hate

I'm still running from shadows!
Reflections in the windows
I'm still lying to mother
I'm still trying for pain