Title: “Can’t Admit I Love You”
Author: Dragonedalia
Rating: PG-13?

Dedicated to my dear character Yaoi Crystagreen, to whom this song describes.

“Can’t Admit I Love You”

Can you scoff at a bird that’s never flown when it fears the sky?
Can you blame a dog who’s been hit to be too scared to play?
Can you chide a cat that fears the rat that bit him?
And can’t you understand that I can’t admit I love you?

All my life I’ve known only sorrow
The family I lacked, the friends who were few…
Then you came in and changed my life
I never wanted to be alone again.

You’re like a god who knows what they want
A celestial being that speaks their mind…
You can say your feelings, you tell me always
To say “I love you” comes so easily…

I want to be in your arms forever…
I want to be your someone special…
But can you love a person who houses such helplessness…?
I can’t even admit that I love you!
When will this fear of loss leave my body?
When will this haunted past disappear?
Will I lose you to the pure and simple fact…
That I’m afraid of love?

Can a person who was never loved attract another?
Can they make the right choice on who to love?
Can I tell who will love and who will leave?
And will I never tell them my feelings before they leave?

I’ve made bad choices and pulled on through
Though repeated performances I grew used to pain.
And like an angel sent from Heaven you came to me
And bathed me in your light…

Needless to say, it didn’t start off grand,
No, love took quite a long time to develop…
But where I see love in me you must see friendship,
Because I’ve never said “I love you too”…

I want to be in your arms forever…
I want to be your someone special…
But can you love a person who houses such helplessness…?
I can’t even admit that I love you!
When will this fear of loss leave my body?
When will this haunted past disappear?
Will I lose you to the pure and simple fact…
That I’m afraid of love?

My words here are true,
I don’t want you to leave me…
If I’m alone once more I’ll waste away…

Without your touch, without your smile,
Without you life’s not worth living.
I fear the worst shall come upon us
You’ll tire of loving someone who doesn’t not return such feelings…

And when you’re gone
I’ll finally be able to say
“Yes, I love you!”
But it will be too late…

I want to be in your arms forever…
I want to be your someone special…
But can you love a person who houses such helplessness…?
I can’t even admit that I love you!
When will this fear of loss leave my body?
When will this haunted past disappear?
Will I lose you to the pure and simple fact…
That I’m afraid of love?

Can you blame me that I’m afraid to love…?
Will I lose you and your love…?
Why can’t I admit this…?
Why is love so cruel…?

I can’t admit it…
I’m sorry.