The Promise

As I wait for my train I remember the promises that you made why is it you never even kept one ,
I had decided it was time for me to move on ,
I'm on the train now my heart shaking with fear once again I'm wishing you were here but you are no longer near and you will never be again , my eyes begin to water things are happening so fast and as I sit by the window my life passing in a flash , I will never look behind me hoping this new journey will last I no longer think about what lies behind me for who needs a painful past .
But I can't ignore this feeling eating at my heart hearing all the voices asking why our realationship is falling apart . Do or can you remember the first promise you ever made to me ? well can you ?
Well I can you told me , you promised , you said you'd always care and when ever I may need you
just call you and you'd be there so tell me what happened to that promise you know the one you wish you'd never have to make how can it be that out of all hearts it was mine you had to brake.
I'll never forget the way you made me feel but I will never again deny it wishing it wasn't real .
I was always tagging along where ever you would go or be hoping to find the answer if you really did love me . For that was my biggest fear year after year I would wonder how you felt about about me it was all to obvious everyone could see . all along my heart and fears were true all I ever really wanted was to be loved by you .
I never made you promises I did not intend to keep ,
I never tried to say things that would make you weep.
you pushed me away and said things that would always make me cry ,
So I took all my things and left what's the use of saying good-bye?
So now I promise I will never look back behind me as I will repeat who needs a painful past .
slowly I am dying inside from the things that I had once known ,
Things that were always said ,done and shown ,
Things I doubt you could ever really know , how could you say that you never loved me after everything I'd do for you it hurts so much knowing it's the truth and never keeping the promise you swore you'd never break for the two things that kill me are one the fact that you never ever cared and told me that you would never love me and the promise you just had to break .
The promise that used to guide me giving me the strenght to get through another day and you who gave me the urge to runaway