If Only

I don’t want to have to see you

For me to be happy

I don’t want to have to think of you

For me to smile

I don’t want to have to talk to you

For my day to be great

I want things as they were before you came.

If only I could lose this reliance

And be independent once again

I don’t want to spend the day

Waiting for a glimpse of you;

I don’t want to spend the night

Endlessly dreaming of you;

If only I could stop thinking of you

And maybe…forget you.

If only I could decide which voice to follow;

The one of my heart

Or the one of my head?

I want to see you

Without feeling anything

I want to talk to you

Without feeling giddy

I want to be able to touch you

Without thinking romantically

If only I could think of you as a friend

And nothing…nothing more.

If only…

--mskitsune--