Life
By Ani

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I sat down on the cold not to mention wet, metal that was beneath me. I just sat there waiting, listening for the crackling of fallen autumn leaves. Everything was wrong. So very wrong. My parents' relationship was on the fritz. I thought back. I remember hearing glass being smashed and my mother's cry for him to stop. I closed my eyes and tried to shake away the pain and the coldness that was making me shake uncontrollably.

I had moved away. I moved away from the pain and from the fear of getting hurt. I felt guilty for leaving my own mother there. I had gathered all the money I had, packed my things and left. I stayed with my friend Abigail's place for a couple of days while I tried to get back on my feet. Then for a short period of time everything was fine.

My parents stopped fighting and talking and I was doing fine. No fighting. Then the guy of my dreams walked into my life. He was unbelievably cute, smart; he had a sense of humor, and was so-mega sweet. We became friends and then eventually boyfriend and girlfriend. My friends were all happy for us. He knew everything about me and everything that had happened in my life. I shared my fears and emotions with me. He even wiped away my tears when I cried just thinking about my past.

Until one day I was walking back to my car from buying some stuff and saw his car. I walked up to it only close enough to see him making out with another girl. My heart was shattered. I knew I had to get out of there and I did. I thought "Hey! He's just a guy. Forget about him." But somewhere in my heart I couldn't. I was so mad because he knew. He knew what I was going through and he knew I didn't want to be hurt again.

When I got home from that expedition, Archie my older brother told me that my mother was in hospital. He hurt her so bad that she had to be admitted to the hospital. There and then I snapped. He left and I came here. I had decided that this life wasn't worth all the pain that I had encountered. It began to rain even harder and despite the cold blowing wind I stood up and held on to the metal railing next to me. My trench coat was flapping in the wind now.

I didn't bother keeping myself warm anymore because I knew that where I was going it would be "heavenly" or "a nightmare" Maybe all of this was a nightmare or maybe god was testing me to see whether or not people even through hurt and pain still believed in him. Even with all this pain which I was burdened with, unbelievably I still did. I believed in him with all of my heart. "Hope!" I spun around at the sound of my name. Yes, my name is Hope. I don't really know why my parents named me that because with what I feel like now, there is no hope, no hope for me to live on, anymore.

I rolled my eyes. It was the oldest sibling of our family, and my older sister, Brooke. Archie was with her now. She was five years older than me and only two years older than Archie, but despite the "few" and I emphasize that "few" years older that us she acted more like a mother hen. Another mother and if we weren't kept an eye on, we would do something stupid. "What the hell do you want Brooke?!" I shouted walking back and forward on the thin not to mention slippery piece of metal that I was on.

"Hope listen to me stop walking on that thing and get off you're going to fall!" I looked at her with a horrified look on my face and said to her in a sarcastic voice. "Oh sorry I had no idea." I stepped off that piece and onto an even thinner one. "Stop it Hope you're going to kill -" She stopped in mid-sentence and looked at me I knew she could see it. "That's it isn't it?! You want to kill yourself!" "Brooke leave me alone you don't know what I've gone through! So don't say it isn't worth it because this life itself isn't!" I screamed. She didn't know what was happening to me and the pain and hurt I've went through. "You and Archie have gone through life the way you wanted let me go through mine the way I want!"

They looked at me and then at each other. They knew I was speaking with my heart now. "Hope," Brooke started, "Whatever you do and whatever you go, you know that we will always love you." Archie despite the fact that he is always showing off his masculinity was crying. My skirt was drenched and it stuck to me like glue. My tears had dried onto my face and I could swear that I saw a tear fall down Brooke's cheek. I smiled at them and murmured "Good-bye" I leaned back to enjoy the feeling of my newfound light.

The End.