There's a secret place within my heart,
where the walls are strong and hard.
Slipping in, I hide myself,
showing me to no one else.
Years of guilt and hurt I kept,
stacked up neatly deep in there.
And one of those boxes bear your name,
since into my life you came.

People say that love is sweet,
or even simply "suteki".
Dramas, movies, books and songs,
preach the same thing all day long.
Yet, there must be rain someday,
and love is not one big fruitcake.
Hurt and sadness it does bring,
and anger rising from within.

Why can't the wound just close and heal
from the day when time stood still?
Even now, I feel the pain,
that's long imprinted in my head.
How I wish I had not seen,
the face - your face - that had been.
Thinking back, I curse and swear
for my foolishness that none had shared.

The heavens cried throughout that day,
for her it seems, for me it may.
Never had I felt so dumb,
never to rage have I succumbed.
They say the tongue's a dreadful beast,
now I know, now I see.
For the beast had struck us then,
tearing up our hearts to shreds.

I close my eyes and still I see,
might as well I let it be.
Watching memories floating by,
bringing lost smiles back to life.
I see the birth of a little story
filled with moments, sweet and funny.
But towards the end it got quite ugly,
all the way till "ano hi".

I open my mouth to scream out loud,
yet no words really came out.
Covering my lidless eyes,
I try to soothe that heart of mine.
Shutting doors to that secret place,
blocking out that dreadful pain.
Now I know how you had felt,
the day I suggested we break up.

Deep at night, I hear no sound,
'cept the clock ticks round and round.
Shadows are all that I can see,
with my physical eyes at least.
The moonlight plays upon my ragged skin,
joined by cold winds from the east.
Onto the bed I lay back down,
of time I had slowly lost all count

People told me to let go,
how I wish it could be so.
A punishment the gods gave me,
to feel the regret and anguish.
In a prison with no doors,
in deep abyss my heart is lost.
even now I toss and turn,
"ano hi e" I shall return.

Note: I used some romanised japanese words in the poems, namely "suteki", "ano hi" and "ano hi e". If I am not wrong, they mean "wonderful", "that day" and "to that day" respectively.