12/4/03 Thursday 12:26 PM

The doctor says any day now! I can't believe in just a matter of a few days I'm going to be holding her in my arms. Dylan's mother, Lisa asked of she could be in the room with me since this is going to be her first grandchild. How could she even think I would say yes after she totally denied that this baby was even related to her? I don't know if I am or not. I think I just want it to be me and grams in the delivery room. Grams should be the only one allowed since she was the one that stuck by me through all of this. She really is looking forward to having a grandchild. And she's even more excited about it being a girl! She's still bugging me to call my mother. I'm still deciding over that to. Well not much else to write about now. Oh Dylan still hasn't bothered to call or anything. I've decided that he's really not worth my tears anymore. I have to get my priorities in order and this baby comes first in my life now from this day forward. I'll write again soon.

12/5/03 Friday 3:00 AM

I just went into labor a few minutes ago. I decided to write this entry before I even told Grams. The contractions are only a few minutes apart so I guess I should go and tell her. Well the next time I write in her I'll have a new baby girl!

12/8/03 Monday 5:30 PM

Kara Rose Morris. Yes I did decide to use Dylan's last name. I just thought that it would be right. I love her name too. It was a last minute decision, I was going to name her Madison Elizabeth but then I saw the nurse's nametag and I just loved the name. Grams loved it to. Giving birth I think is the single hardest thing I have ever done. It hurt so badly. I think the worst part was the contractions while I was pushing. I don't think I've ever screamed so much in my life. And I almost broke Grams hand. She's beautiful though. It was well worth all the pain and suffering I had to go through. I just got home a few hours ago and I'm exhausted. But now Kara and me are starting our new lives together. Just her and me.

12/9/03 Tuesday 2:20 AM

Just got up for yet another feeding. Man this kid eats a lot. And she just loves to wake mommy up at all hours of the night. This is going to be a lot harder than anticipated. I'm writing write now for two reasons, one I can't get back to sleep, and two, Dylan came over yesterday to see his daughter for the first time. He barely even held her. I was almost sure that once he saw her adorable face that he could never let her go. I was wrong. He just acted as if this were another persons child and not his own. Lisa really loved her though. I was really glad about that to. But Dylan just remains unattached to her. I really can't understand how he can't love a baby, especially his own. Maybe he'll warm up to Kara eventually. I don't know. Oh and I guess I forgot to mention this before, but I do go to school, well actually I have a tutor, Mrs. O'Brien that comes everyday for three hours. Now I'm finally going to get some sleep. Until next time (.

A/n Thanks everyone for all the great baby names!! But I found this one on and I just fell in live with it! But thanks to the person that said Madison was overused-you were so right! Well I'll update again soon, thanks again for the reviews!