Demons are here for me. They always are. they never leave me alone. Will no one save me from my self?

I'm siting in my room. I look at the mirror and scream. I get off my floor and walk upstairs to the bathroom and look at my red eyes. He doesn't love you says a voice in my head.

I cry harder at that point knowing it's true. How could anyone love me? I hit the mirror as if that's were the voice is from. As I look at the mirror shattered and then my bleeding fist I walk out of the bathroom into the dining room and smash the mirror there.

I begin to go from room to room, breaking every mirror. Finally I'm in my room again. I smash each mirror very slowly and make sure the shards are huge. I slip one out and begin to write on the rest of the mirror, "I love you mom, I just can't take my life with out his love anymore. Cremate me and bury my ashes at sea. I love you so much, never forget me."

I take my mirror piece and cut the letters K, E, and N into my tummy. I put a big heart around it and slash my breasts.

Breathing heavy I put eight vertical lines on my right wrist and five on the other and then I put two huge horizontal lines, one on each arm. I lay down and cry softly until it all goes dark.

Through the dark I whisper, "I love Ken Rooks and will until the day I die."

Read and review if you want. It's mostly for him though. Just a whisper of how much I love him. Never forget, I'm still dealing with my issues. If I forget to mail or something. I love you, even while I'm dying I won't forget your simple words.

~Rayvin