The pain tears through my body

I have to bite my lip

I can't make any noise

I'm pulling at my hair

I feel like I'm going to collapse

My nails are digging into my palms

My feet twitch inside my shoes

I try to cross my ankles

Willing the pain to stop

I reach out for anyone

But nobody's there

I want to scream out loud

Yet I know I can't

Flashes of orange run through my head

A streak of gray goes by

I close my eyes so they don't roll

I think about the last time

I don't really want to

But I do anyway

I taste the blood in my mouth

I think an end is near

It won't come soon enough

It's a moment before I realize

It's all in my head