Chapter 1

I walked into the doctor's office and I saw Lana. Lana and I have known each other since we were babies. I mean I lost my virginity to her and she was my first kiss. The only reason I lost my virginity to her is because she felt bad. That was the day I was diagnosed with stomach cancer and I went over to her house. I was all upset and I was like I'm going to die a virgin. She told me I wasn't and you know the rest. That same day my dad and little 5-year-old sister died in a car accident. I still feel it's my fault cause they were rushing to the hospital to see me. Well anyway back to the present.

"Lana?" I asked.

She looked up at me "Hi Blain how are you?"

"I'm good, what are you doing here?" I asked

"I uh." she started.

Then a nurse came in and called her back. I sat down and waited for them to call me back. My stomach hurt so bad right then I thought I was going to die.

"Hey Blain you can come back now to room 2." Said Nurse Kim.

I knew all them I have been there so many times I went to the room and took my shoes off and went to get my temperature and weight taken.

"Okay go back to the room." Kim said.

I walked back to the room and sat on the bed table thing. Then Kim came back in.

"Okay lay down and lift up your shirt." She said,

I know the drill I should have did it before she came back but I guess I'm too lazy. I laid down and lifted my shirt.

"I think you know what I have to do next." She said.

I knew all right so I shook my head. I wasn't ready for the pain I never was, but I was hoping it wouldn't hurt so much since I was already in pain but I was wrong.

"Ready?" she asked.

"No." I moaned.

"I know it hurts Blain but you got to have the monthly check up." She stated.

"I know. I'm ready go ahead let's do this." I said not excited at all.

She pushed on my stomach to see how tender it was. It hurt so bad I thought I would cry. But I tried not to.

"Okay Blain Doctor Zan will be in here in a few minutes." She said.

"Okay, I'm going to the bathroom real quick." I said.

I felt the urge of throwing up so I walked fast. I was up all last night throwing up. I was sick of it. As I was sitting over the toilet throwing up blood I felt my temperature rise. I thought I was going to pass out. Then my mom's friend walked in. She was Doctor Lewis she is really nice. She works down in the ER. She is kind of hot to but too old for me.

"Blain are you okay?" she asked worriedly.

"No." I said.

"Be right back" she left the bathroom.

She came back with an ear thermometer and took my temperature.

"What is my temperature?" I asked.

"It is 102.5." she said.

She got a cold wet wash cloth and put it on my forehead. After a while Doctor Zan came in and told me to go home and come back tomorrow so he can finish the check up. I told him okay. Once I was done throwing up Doctor Lewis got a wheel chair and wheeled me down stairs to wait for my older brother Greg to pick me up. I was scheduled for a surgery on my stomach Thursday. I heard Doctor Zan and Lewis talking about getting it early but I couldn't cause the Doctor who is going to do it is on vacation. So I don't know how I'm going to get it early. Greg pulled up and I got out of the wheel chair and walked out to his car.

"Hey little Bro" he said.

"Hi, I got another appointment tomorrow after school." I said.

"Aight." He said.

He doesn't live with us anymore. He has his own apartment. He's 21 but he won't buy me alcohol. Oh well I don't think my stomach will take it anyway. He dropped me off at home and then left.