Needing you Sequel to fighting, a General fanfic

A/N: I don’t own the Michelle Branch song "Goodbye To You." I only own the characters in the story.
Chapter 1
I laid in my bed looking up at the ceiling. I was thinking about what happened a few days earlier. How my best friend died and how much I wish I didn’t hurt him, but mostly about how much I loved him. How was I to go on? I looked at the clock it was 1pm. I wanted to go over to his house and see him standing there alive. But it wouldn’t happen because he is dead. I got up and went down stairs. I went out the front door and walked pass the three houses to Blains house, even though he wasn’t there I wanted to just stand in his room one more time. I rang the doorbell.
"Lana..."
"Hi Mrs. Jackson, may I come in?"
"Yes Lana you may."
"Thank you, I just want to stand in his room one more time."
"Okay sweetie." She said then giving me a hug.
I hugged her back. I went up the stairs to his room. I sat on his bed. I looked around. It was different with out him there. I saw something on the desk it was an envelope standing up. It had my name on it. I went over and picked I up.
I opened it and it said:
Dear Lana,
There is a CD in the stereo. Play it while u read this letter. It’s something that fits this perfectly. Lana, I know that you didn’t mean to do that thing to me the other night. You just were confused on if I loved you or not. Lana I do love you and I always will even after I’m dead. I just didn’t want you to love me, because I didn’t want to hurt you when I died. I sure hope you can get over me but always keep me in your heart, because you will always be in mine. Lana I love you with all my heart. Goodbye to you as Michelle’s song. I dedicate it to you Lana.
~Love~
Blain
I played the song again and again. Each time I listened I really thought what Blain was meaning by it.
Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by
I guess by that phrase he meant he believed that some treatments would work but he wanted to get it over with, but he didn’t want to cry and he counted down the days. I started to cry myself.
I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star
I wanted to die right then and there. I fell to the floor sobbing so hard I couldn’t breathe. What was I going to do I never told him I was pregent with his baby. I couldn’t tell him. My parents don’t even know. If they did they would kill me. I need Blain back.

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