If I wanted to cry, I would

If I wanted to die, I would

If I wanted to bleed I’d let the blood fall

But somehow I find myself here

If I wanted to hurt you, I’d have done it by now

If I wanted to scream, you’d have heard

If I wanted the world to feel all my hate

I wouldn’t find myself here

If I wanted to run, I’d run faraway

And leave the torment behind

If I wanted to leave, I’d just go

But I’m still here

If I wanted to remain stifled

Silenced

And forgotten

You wouldn’t find me trapped here

If I wanted to let you inside my mind

Expose you to all my rage

Concealed behind a glazed look

You would know

I am here

And you are here

And no matter how much you want me

Or simply want me to stay

You are living in a foolish lie

Because my final here is far away