constantly eternal

in a world
of strangers
and familiar faces
of cold smiles
and warm stares
i struggle to
exist

in a constant struggle
against myself
and all those things
i deem important
and those
that are better left alone
i refuse to
give in

in one moment
that slashed the silence
in a world of tears
and forced laughter
and eyes that
stare at you with such compassion
and hate
i died
once again

in words
that kill you at once
or a little each time
but still kill you
nonetheless
i realize that
the world
will be better
without
me...

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jan 30, 2003