the only way i know how to do this
is to numb the pain that tears me apart
i try everyday to do as im told
i try to give what i've never had
that moment when im weak
and vulnerable to evil's hand
my heart tells me not to
but it's my heart that got me into this
god damn it! why can't i fight this off?
you make it look so easy!
and you dont leave room for me to breathe!
i want this potion
to seal the punctures in my skin
i thought i was making it better
but insted i was creating a bigger problem
feeling inferior myself...i never knew.
i never knew that i was beating
down those around me that matter
creating a new kind of inferior
lower than i've ever been...