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The End

A/N: This is for Teffy, your all grown up and I am writing this so that you will never forget me now that your going off to collage. I think your one of the few people I can say that are my best friends and I've never been able to hug. I wish I could have been there more for you, and I wish that you were here now for me to tell you all that you mean to me. Wow, there is so much I want to tell you… You're one of the most important people to me. A lot of things are going on as I write this that are so emotional I can't really believe them. Anyway, what I mean is you deserve your piece of my emotional break down too. Teffy I love you so much there is no way I could put it into words so I am not even going to try. If I hadn't met you this year than I know a great light in my life wouldn't have been there. No one can ever take your place and my thoughts and heart will be with you even though I am thousands of miles away. In the eternal night of my life you are one of my stars.

The cry of my body for completeness

That is a cry to you.

- Marry Carolyn Davies

Its insane, really, I've been shot at, pushed off sky scrapers and out of planes, been poisoned, stabbed, drowned, strangled, chained and all around trussed up without ever feeling a tenth of the fear that now fills every pore of me, body, mind, all of it. So… what exactly is the con-man thief thrill seeker Iais Layieel doing, or about to do, that so terrifies him? He is going to talk to his partner, Key. I'm a fool. For the past three years I've been through hell and high water with 'Lenna and him, now its all over. Well, its been over for the last month but it takes a bit to come back to reality after a ride like ours; lots of loose ends to tie up.

So anyway, he's leaving. I don't blame him; he has no reason to stay. Stay… heh, listen to be, where is he going to stay? We have no real home, I want him to stay in a time, this time, and no one can. And anyway, 'Lenna has gone to set up her club in New Orleans, after some much need rest I am getting back into 'the work.' As for Key, I don't know, he's never been that forth coming about his life before, well, everything. All I know is he's leaving me, leaving this time in which I had him, disappearing from my life. I had three years to tell him, to try and get across all that he and 'Lenna meant to me. Now that’s over, and he's leaving with the night.

Return often and take me,
Beloved sensation, return and take me -
When memory of the body awakens,
And old desire again runs through the blood;
When the lips and skin remember,
And the hands feel as if they touch again.

-C. P. Cavafy

The moonlight is ebbing, darkness turns to gray and that's gonna fade to crimson all to soon. I lost. I lost the chance to see how his golden hair looks on the pillow beside me. I lost the chance to see the love of a lover in his eyes. Everything I have come to long for will fade away in the light of day, and there ain't a damn thing I can do about it…

You can't go back,
Only foreword.
Walking and running 'till ya run outta space.
In such a hurry to get
To an ever shrinking place.
The past is big…
Big enough for two,
Had I been brave enough then.
The future is so small,
A tight fit for just one.
Why can't I walk backward?
Why can't I live in the past with you?
It's so big; my memory is eating up my life…
I wanna stay there
In the past with you…
But I cant
'Cause I've been running so hard
I'm at the head of the pack.
If I stop now
Their just gonna carry me on their chests.
I'm being pushed foreword
When I wanna go back.
This is the price
This the gift I paid for in time,
When I started this mad race…
IM sorry baby,
I wanted to build us a castle in the past,
But we're both runnin' too far in the future.
There ain't gonna be room when we get there
But we can't stop now.
Runnin', runnin'
Tell me again,
Why can't I run back?

- Race of Madness, Avari de Lioncourt