Divorce. It's a fun word that every child enjoys hearing. Give me a break. My whole life I can only remember being afraid of two things-the dark and divorce. I have no idea why I was so afraid of divorce. Oh wait yes I do-it's a HUGE life changing event that literally makes your entire life different. So I was scared. People knew that I was scared. And it really was no secret to anyone that my parents couldn't stand each other. Christ my dog even knew that my parents couldn't stand to be in the same room with one another. I was totally and numbingly scared to death of my parents getting a divorce. I think that's why no one would have predicted that on a day just like any other I would tell my parents to end it.

Yep you heard right-a child asked their parents to get divorced. I had never heard of anyone who asked to have there life and family torn apart, and till this day when I tell people that can't believe it either. But trust me there are reasons.

I can remember one day my dad asking how I would "feel" if he moved out. How would I FEEL!! Let me tell you I would feel like shit! I wanted to say that to him to but the word wouldn't come out of my mouth. So I just kind of looked at him with my sad almost teary eyes and begged him not to do it. That I couldn't handle it. And my dad had never mentioned it since that day. That was probably the most selfish thing I had ever done in my life. Asking your parents not to be happy, not to be able to find love because your afraid that it's going to affect your life-that's crap. One day I just realized that from the moment I was born my parents have sacrificed a lot to have me. Parties they missed, sleepless nights, changing my diaper 5 times a day, always having to watch me, and spending loads of money on the daily crap that I needed. And I realized that I had to give them something back, I had to be totally selfless in order to give them a little of what they had given me. So one day my mother, my sister, and me were in the car and my mom was yet again complaining about my father and I just said very quietly then just get a divorce. Both my sister and my mom looked at me like I had just grown another eyeball in the center of my head. But I did it. And they listened to me! You know how we as kids always complain that our parents never listen to us? Well my parents decided to take this opportunity to test out the whole "let's try and listen to her theory". God on somedays I just wish she had never heard me.

A/n Review!!!!! I'm sorry to everyone who has read this that I haven't updated. But this 2 part chapter has been very hard for me to write because even after a year and 6 month's it's still something that I don't talk about. But I hope this chapter helps someone out there whose parents are getting divorced now or who have in the past. But the 2nd part is on the way!