Mute

I wish I could say the right words
To explain how I feel
I wish I knew how to make happiness
To have everybody proud of me
I wish everyone could accept me
For what I really am
I wish that they could see
I can't be what they want me to be

But I can't do any of these things
They're always right and I'm always wrong
I can't make all of them happy
Whatever I do is always wrong
I can't make them understand or see
That I wish to be me
I can't find the right words
To tell them this is wrong

So I'll just keep on living
This lie that I live
I can't tell the truth to anyone
Because it'll ruin everything I've worked for
This is the way it always is
I have to live how they want me to live
Of course, knowing me, I must rebel
Getting me in more trouble than I'm already in

So what's the use of fighting
If I can't make them understand?
What's the use of speaking a word
If they always think I have attitude?
What's the use of trying
When nothing I do is good enough?
What's the use of promising
If all I can do is break them?

All my mom does
Is pick an argument
All she ever says
Is I have an attitude problem
All she'll ever know
Is what she wants to believe
All she'll ever understand
Is what she thinks is right

She will not listen to me
I can't get through her thick head
She will not level with me
It always has to be her way
She refuses to accept
That I can't be happy living like her
She refuses to accept
That anyone or thing can love each other

She wants me to be happy
But only if it's of her approval
She doesn't want to see sadness in my eyes
But only if she can have her own way
She does everything for my own good
Though it makes me miserable
She creates 'consequences' to help me learn
Though they tear me apart inside

But there's no use in fighting
It gets me nowhere and forever will
There's no use in trying to speak
Because I'm only giving her 'attitude'
She won't listen to me, she won't understand
I'm just manipulating her with every word
She's always right and I'm always wrong
...I may as well be mute