Chapter Title: In Awe of You

~ In Awe of You ~

Did you ever know that, the very first time you came through that door, I've been dazzled by you? It was like the Sun itself had come in.

There was something in the way you carried yourself, the way you squared your shoulders as you walked, that was bewitching. It was as if you were gliding into the room, your movements were so fluid and graceful. It wasn't every day us girls saw someone with your style and elegance and I can tell you now, it was as if a dream had just waltzed in.

Your hair was beautiful too. I remember how it caught the light and swayed as you walked. Yes, I must admit it was quite strange that you had long hair, because it gave you a feminine side. You were always proud of your raven hair and I had always found it captivating.

What about your eyes? I don't think anyone has seen eyes as pure and as bright as yours and been. They were blue, remember? As blue and the summer sky and they always sparkled and danced like two sapphires. I loved your eyes best, because they never told me lies. I wonder, if they were open now, would I be able to see their childish innocence again?

Now that you've stopped walking, stopped standing, I can tell just how worn and tired you are. Your hair is limp and matted, not at all like the silky locks we've all been accustomed to seeing. I can't see your eyes any more, they've been hidden under pale lids so that no one can see their sparkle. You've changed so much over these past few months, I can barely recognise you. The familiar sense of security I got, knowing you were always strong, has gone - and I'm scared.

Even so, as I look at you now, I can still picture you when you could still play and muck around like the rest of us. I can still remember the dashing smile that frequently graced your pale lips. It's still there and I'm sure that nothing can wipe it off now. If I try hard enough, I can see your eyes open and feel the warmth of your gaze on me.

You never gave up, never knew the meaning of it. Until even that last moment, you were still smiling. Optimist. Maybe that's why I loved you. But someone like me did not deserve you. It would have been like a beggar dreaming of being a king, complete with gold and riches. You were a legend.

And I was in awe of you.