My Beloved

My beloved, I've admired you from afar for nearly all my life, I dreamed of you even before I was conceived. When around you I feel mighty yet weak, Healthy but sick, Calm yet at unease. I've tried countless times trying to confess the love that burrows deeply within my heart, It's very beats driven by your illuminated soul. Yet each opportune time as lead itself down a dead end. As I am left out to hang upon the edge of the earth Holding on so as to not plummet in to the desolation of abyssal space, I can only feel anger and sorrow all at once. Why don't you give me the chance to love you? To wake up to your shining beauty. Why can't you be the light that will guide me through the dark and into heaven? All I dream is to be able to swim in the ocean of you. To drink the fountain of youth, your love. I want to know your heart To read the novel of your soul. And as I stare into my apparent oblivion, My destiny of loneliness, I only wish for you to save me from the guillotine of despair, And to be revived by your love only.