“I Told You To Go”

Why are you here?

Reading my thoughts

Seeing into my soul

Sifting through

Personal things about me

Things I don’t want

Anyone to know.

You’re here,

Inside of me.

I wish that

You would just go away.

I don’t want you here

Don’t want anyone here.

But you won’t

Leave me alone.

I feel you

Deep inside

Slithering around

Like a snake.

I can’t get you

Out of my head.

My thoughts rest on you

Like a frog to a pond

Full of lily pads.

Why can’t you just go away?

Leave me alone!

I want you gone.

Don’t you understand that?

Don’t you see

How I want to be alone?

Don’t want to let anyone in.

Too many secrets

Can’t spill them all.

Letting people in

Will only let them out.

I hear the violins

Shrieking madly,

Telling me to run.

But running

Would do no good.

You’re with me

Wherever I go,

Telling me to open up,

Asking me

What I really want.

I don’t know.

Hearing your voice

Soothing me

Welcoming me home

I tried to run away

And yet,

You’re still here

Still wanting me.

Is there

Something wrong with you?

Why are you still here?

I told you to go.

I tried to run.

But nothing worked.

You’re still deep inside of me.

I know you’ve seen them,

My horrid secrets.

But they obviously

Don’t bother you

Cause I can still hear you.

I can still see you.

I can still feel you.

You’re still here.

Why?

(been listening to Evanescence a lot lately, yeah, they had something to do with writing this piece. The part about the violins, yeah, heard that part in their song, and decided to stick them in the poem too. And about the frogs and all, I’ve got some friends who love frogs, so as a note, this has nothing to do with them. I’m not telling them to go away at all. In fact, don’t really know who I am telling to go away. Kinda wish I did know though. Would be interesting….-QOTU)