She was tired . For 2 hours she worked in the library , looking for datas
for the comics she was drawing ,after that she met her friends and they saw
a comedy. But she wasn't paying any attention anyway ,she wondered if
anyone did even noticed she left her seat about 5 or 6 times and yondered
buying junk food and sitting in the toilet , sketching.
Not like she paid for her ticket anyway.She was so anti-comedies that one
of theme offered to pay for her ticket.
She gave a look at the car's clock.It was almost eight.Quite probable
she'll be in trouble when she gets home, she didn't came back home all day
and she left at about 9 in the morning.She had fun....ate pizza , drank
beer and Coke.
Now David , the older brother of one of her friends was driving theme all
She showed him the house and he stopped at about four houses away.She told
him she had to go to another friend at one of those houses, but the thing
was that her dad would of gone crazy if he'd saw her in a stranger's car.
She waved theme good bye and headed towards the suburban house where all
lights were already on , and, from the garage she could see the front of a
dark brown Cobra Mercedes.Jason was home already.
She unlocked the door and entered,leaving her sports shoes in different
corners of the hallway as she threw theme from her feet with disgust.
"It's me !" She said with a dry voice. Everytime she stepped into that
house she felt sick , angry and pissed off, with an ocassional
headache.Above the house was a very very black cloud, she was sure.
Her father told her she has food in the kitchen.They knew she was not going
to eat anything her step mother cooked.
"Is Jason home already ? " She screamed from the kitchen while eating an
" The asshole is upstairs." her father replied while changing channels from
football to news.
Asshole meant Jason did something wrong.She hurried up on the stairs but
her father's voice stopped her:
" Aunt Maryanne is waiting us,get in the car."
"What ? I don't wanna go ! "
" Yes you will !" Her father replied getting out of the room , dressed in
shorts and a blue T-shirt.
" No I won't ! I hate it there !"
" Fucking move into the car !" He screamed.
She had the animal instinct to jump on him and bite his face off.Or curse.
She exited the house and entered the car.
The pendulum on the hallway was his only companion during those 6 hours he
stood alone in the room.
His father told him his mother had a big mouth and he inharited the bad
habit of speaking too much and bad from her.
He shook his head and threw the book he was reading on the bed and looked
outside.The car was just parking in the garage. He heard a door slamming ,
but the car didn't stopped.
His muscles tensed as he saw the young brunette jumping from the moving car
, collapsing on the cement , rising again and running in the house.
The man inside screamed something after her.
Doors slammed all around the house, a girl's scream , and someone running
up the stairs.
He opened the door fast , caught her by the arm and into his room, pushing
her behind the door.
" What happened dad ? " He asked , like he just opened the door.
" Your fucking sister, embarassing me everywhere we go! Stay the fuck in
your room ! " he pushed him ,and hit Cassandra's door witch was locked."
You'll come out tomorrow and we'll have a long talk about this ,brat ! "
And he left .
He could hear Penelope's whines , telling him he wasn't supposed to take
care of such ungrateful children and that they should go to hell along with
Funny thing , she was always nice when she talked with them about their
He closed the door and behind it was Cassandra ,with her back against the
" Don't mention it. What happened ? "
" He said something bad about mom and I kinda cursed in front of everyone."
" Kind of ? "
" I called him an egocentrist motherfucker."
" Egocentrist?Nice......" He replied sitting next to her .
" What did you do ? He called you an asshole earlier."
" He picked on me because I broke a plate.He was drunk."
She looked at him.
In the room the light was dim, only some light from outside coming in
trough the window.Light shadows coming from the cars that passed on the
road were dancing on Jason's face.
"What the...." She approached his face more.On his cheek and on a part of
his eyes was a darker shadow.
He pushed her hands away , she slapped theme , examining closer.
"Oh my god...." She finally gasped and hugged him.
A fresh bruise.
"I'm okay....really,I am."
" We have to get out of here. Fast."
" I told you. As soon as I get a job ,we'll move in an apartment.Didn't I
promised that to you ? "
" Shut up already Jason.There's a long time until that happens.And you know
it." She said braking the embrace."Until then....we'll wait."
Some voices downstairs.fading away as they walked into another room.
"J. , can I sleep here tonight ? Not like I'm afraid of dad or anything."
"Sure." He smiled." I have a bottle of dry gin under my bed.Care to join me
?"He said rising and heading to the bed, taking out from under it a small
"I'll worship you like a god if you give me a sip." She replied , sitting
with her back against the bed.
No talking was needed.
The nights when they stood in the same room, conforting each other after
fights that lasted hours or after punches or pushes were countless.
He only used to hit Cassandra very rare , she only got about 2 slaps , but
for her the fights were endless.Jason always had to take the bruises.
They were different yet the same.Jason was small for his age , he had about
1.67 ,just like Cassandra who was 16, and he was easy to push around ,
especially by their father who was 1.90 and weighted twice as they did.
Jason rarely responded to his fights or curses,he preffered to just let him
flow his anger and he would finally leave him alone.
Cassandra responded ,she fought back,angry,she struggeled ,she screamed and
she hit back.But he was the one that noticed she was more afraid than he
was , when everything chilled down, late at nights in her room , she was
Cassandra listened and watched.The noises were down , lights were off.
She opened the door silently.
" What are you doing?!"
" Shhhh!! I'll be right back !" She said and disappeared trough the
darkness of the hallway and down on the stairs.
Silent like a thief she walked until she entered the kitchen, opening the
fridge and pouring some ice in her hand and a can of Coke in her pocket.
It was amazing how so many things could happen in one day.
She waited impatiently the whole day to see him again , to bring her good
Her world resumed to downtown and the walls of the house.
At least she was with him.
She didn't admited, not even to herself , she had a huge crush on him ever
since she turned 12 and could think properly about what was going on with
her looking after him on the hallways of the school ,taking his part in
everything , wether it was right or wrong.
She shook her head and hit herself with the fist filled with ice cubes.She
was supposed to get over it .
A stupid childish mistake , wasn't it ?
Wake up from dreaming Cassandra.Even if, he could never like a freak like
you.You don't even look like a girl,remember how many times people mistook
you for a boy ?
You don't even believe in love anyway.
The pendulum was lughing into her face.
She ignored it and entered the dark room.
" I got some ice for the bruise."
She wrapped the ice in a T-Shirt and pressed it on his face.
" Ow ! Go easy on me girl ! I'm in pain !"
Her obsession was eating her inside,especially being close to him again.
" I got the Coke in case you have to stay late again doing whatever you do
with those work things. I'm sleepy . "
He nodded and got off the bed, taking the covers away so she could get
" Don't wanna take those clothes off you ? "
" I'm okay , I washed theme this morning , they're clean."
She pulled the covers on herself and closed her eyes.She was dizzy from the
gin and sleepy.Drifting away.
He sat next to her with his back on a pillow and the ice on his cheek.
It was not the first time they were sleeping in the same bed. As brothers
they shared the bed many times in camps, trips, at relatives , in nights
like this when they were either too afraid to stay alone , either just
needed someone who knew how it feels next.
Tonight is supposed to be just like any of those nights.
Cassandra suspected it was because of the tiredness and the drink.
She rose sudden from the bed and she stood in front of him .
Everyone hates you anyway Cassandra , mother , father , your friends think
you're a wierdo.Just go with it.
" Cass ? "he asked.
But you don't have to ruin everything.
Everyone else hates you anyway.
" I wanna tell you something ,I have to, you're gonna hate me ,but I
honestly don't care because it's too fucking hard to keep it in.Afterwards
ask me to leave and I will....."
"Cass , you okay ?"
" I...I like you , a lot, I don't think I love you because I don't belive
in love , just like in a different way than a sister should so I said it
and now I'll go , but only after you say to me that you hate me."
The pendulum was ticking louder than ever ,laughing at her.
She saw his shadow putting something white on the bed. The T-Shirt with the
His dark figure almost made her take a step back ,but she stood her ground
as much as she could.
She knew he was looking at her and his eyes seemed to pierce right trough
He leaned in front and kissed her.