A/n: Don't ask. It's always best not to ask. This is to someone. You know who you are.

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I love you but do you really even care? Sometimes I doubt your love despite your claims, despite everything. I know it's wrong, I really do, but I've been hurt so much why should I trust you? What makes you different? What makes you unique? What makes you so special that I should just change everything for you? Sometimes I believe you...Others I can't. I try, but sometimes when I'm talking to you I feel as if you really don't wish to talk. That you're just pretending to care so I won't get hurt again. So do you really love me? You've told me once, you've told me twice. Yet, I cannot seem to remember why I believed you or how good it feels to look into your eyes. I'm sorry I can't be perfect, I'm sorry if I'm not everything you've ever wished for. I wish I could be. I really do but I can never be perfect. I can never be great. I am hurt. I am scarred. I am flawed, tainted. I wish I could see you again. I know that would fix everything. It would all fall back into place but I can't. I wish I could look into your eyes and see the love that I know is there. I wish I could convince my heart that it really was there. But wishing it pointless. It gets me nowhere. If I love you as much as I swear shouldn't I be able to trust you? After all, relationships are based on trust...Is that why so many of mine fuck up so badly? Could that be why I can never keep a steady one? I wish I could feel your arms around me again. I wish I could kiss you again. I need you. I'm not sure what to do with myself anymore. In the mornings I wake up, happy until I realize you aren't there with me. Then during these long afternoons I pace the floor, wishing you were just down the street as you used to be. And as the afternoons fade into evening and cast long shadows in this emptiness tears fill my eyes because you're not here to watch the sunsets. The only thing that keeps me going is realizing that maybe, perhaps, you love me as I love you.

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A/n: Eh... Yeah I know it sucks but whatever. R/r! No flamers please. I might have to strangle you.