Now I look at,
Everything you had given to me.
And there I sat.
Searching for what I can not see.
My mind; a toxic vat.
Contemplating what there should not be.
Now I write my Will.
Before I take this pill.
Then I realise, it makes me laugh,
In order to give, you hafta have.
Ringing in my ears.
Not knowing if you spoke.
Too many listless years.
Not knowing if this was a joke.
Nightmares filled with fears.
Not knowing if I woke.
So now I write my Will.
Before I take this pill.
Then I realise, it makes me laugh,
In order to give, you hafta have.
So now I ask.
No, now I demand.
Remove your mask.
Look at me like a man.
Give me a task,
A purpose I will understand.
And now I write my Will.
Before I take this pill.
Then I realise, it makes me laugh,
In order to give, you hafta have.
Tunnel vision.
and I think I see the light.
Wrong decision,
and I wish I'd done it right.
3rd revision,
and It kept me up all night.