The Sufferer

Why did I do this to myself?

How could I let this occur?

I was walking down the street

With nothing to do

And no one to meet.

What do I believe?

Then I was standing on the bridge,

Waiting for someone

To lift me up.

Lift me up to the better place I’ve never known

Show me heaven like I’ve always dreamt

Give me peace,

And I’ll give my soul.

I need to find the life I once led

Before I’m a memory, lost and dead

Maybe that’s the answer, have I found a way out?

We all die, why not have my peace now?

The sooner, the better for me

Since no one is able to lift me up.

Lift me up to the better place I’ve never known

Show me heaven like I’ve always dreamt

I wanted peace,

So I gave my soul.

Is this a dream world?

Is this what happens when you’re dead?

I don’t know if this choice I made was the best

It’s all a blur, all a mess

Where is this peace I had hoped to find?

Nothing here but pain and loss

I took the easy way out

Now there is no way out of this at all

And thus it shall be

For eternity.

Remember me: the Sufferer.

Tell me how is that better place I’ve never known?

Is that heaven like I’ve always dreamt?

See, I gave my soul

So I’ll never know.