My heart is heavy and I am saddened
So I must write because I am burdened
These words that come from deep within
Are behind closed doors that I have shut stringent

My tears cannot flow
Because my mind does not know
Of the pain my heart has felt
Because with these doors, I have not dealt

Pushing, shoving, then trying to find the key
It seems day-to-day you search endlessly
To find a way into my heart
But of that secret place, you're already a part

My mind still trying hard to comprehend
Because my heart and soul are like two different men
It doesn't understand why they have sinned
And why I feel this pain deep within

Behind closed doors I have hidden this shame
But it seems as if there is no one to blame
I have done this to myself, with no guarantee
That I will come out with the victory

Time and time again I become depressed
But walk out the door with my face neatly pressed
All ready for the whole wide world to see
That from all of the pain, I am completely free

These doors that hold back all emotions from flowing
Are also the ones that hinder my Sprit from growing
They are the ones that will keep me forever in bondage
And the ones that will always block the two-way passage

They make me so tired and hinder my sleep
They bore questions in my mind that carry so deep
They thwart my relationships and friendships I have
They spoil my attitude, and sometimes make me mad

If only I knew how to break these doors
How to fight against them and make them crumble to the floor
If only I had the strength to withstand
These doors, and then learn how to accept man