Feelings

I know I say
that my feelings aren't real
But if you only knew
how I truely feel
I care for you
more then I show
What happens if I tell you
that my feelings
are true
Wishful hopes
and wishful dreams
I hope in my heart
this is more then it seems
Sometimes I hate
you, her and even myself
but with out you
I wouldnt live anyways else
I hope someday
you will take the pain
in my heart away
With your love
I know that it is too much to ask
or maybe it's not
I just don't know anymore..