Confused

Thoughts and memories,
Swirling within a void.
Distant stars,
Shining in the dark night's sky.

They drift around inside my mind,
Lost in this void of stars.
I cannot reach them nor grasp their meaning,
And so I drift in nothing.

My link to the real world has snapped,
My lifeline of hope is broken by despair.
All is quiet here in this void,
Yet the silence is unbearable to me.

I've pushed away those who would rescue me,
I've hid from those who'd try.
They cannot grasp my need to be free,
I can never be free.

In my mind I can roam among these pallid stars,
Yet I must leave the realm of wonder and revert to reality.
I cannot wander about in space,
I cannot grasp the truths I crave.

Why should I go back to the real world?
There's nothing there for me now.
Everyone I loved, everyone I needed,
They fled or were pushed away.

I cannot allow them to see my pain,
I cannot let them be hurt.
I know they fear for me,
But they cannot save me now.

Floating in this black abyss,
Torn between reality and dreams,
I fruitlessly wander and search,
For the truth that will save my world.

No one to whom I can speak to,
No one left to see.
Sorrow alone dwells in my eyes,
While confusion rules my mind.

I think out of all the poems I've ever written this is my second favorite. I was incredibly surprised at how it came out considering I wrote it without realizing what I was writing. Anyways, let me know what you think of it by reviewing. Frozen Midnight