Life of Empty

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I just want to be who I am
Not have to endure trials
Be put through the tests
Measured up to my predecessors

I just want my name to stand alone
Childish to want instant gratification
Impatient and reckless craving
Not satisfied with mediocre
Striving to surpass all others

I just want what I dream of
Fortune and fame and security
Too unmotivated to get it myself
Sitting here complaining
While those others act on their impulses
So I wait for inspiration to hit me

I just can't move from this place
Perhaps scared of trying
Terrified of failing
Not wanting to leave temporary haven
Content to dream and hope
Struggling to make the first step
Cursing my feet as I will them to move
I just don't know how much longer

I can live off the life of dreams