This is dedicated to three of my very good friends who happen to know about, well, some stuff, if you cant figure it out you’re a wee bit dense, but not too dense. So yeah, r/r and if you feel like telling me that it sucks, go right ahead. Oh, and when you’re done with this might I suggest reading my story Akiva? Yeah, just a thought…hope you like this

What you know could kill me.

What I’ve disclosed could drive me mad

How many people will I lie to

Before the seriousness sinks in

And I’m just a stupid hypocrite

Who cries herself to sleep

And begs you to stop destroying yourself

While I slide the blade across my own skin.

And I’m sorry that I’ve hurt you

I’m sorry that I’ve lied

I’m sorry that my need to protect you

Makes me keep the pain inside

And you, you all know this

My most precious little secret

I wish you were oblivious

Like those I also love

The ones who ask what are those?

And are repelled by a lie

And you all know I’m trying

Or at least that’s what I think

But I’ve promised the impossible

I’m so numb, subdued

And I want to return to the old ways

But before, my friends, you criticize

Remember, I’m stopping for you