I cant help myself from slipping back,
To how things used to be,
I went back with a positive attitude,
All set to work,
And come out with decent grades,
I wasn't going to mess up like before.

But it comes,
And after two days,
I've lost my positivity,
I don't want to go to school,
I dread it so much,
Think about it constantly,
I can just sit and think about how bad things are.

Getting nowhere,
Got nowhere to turn,
All out of options,
No where to run,
There's never an easy way out,
All my smiles are false.

Everything's just gone back,
Nothings changed,
I haven't really sorted my self out,
I'm still the same person,
And I can't change that,
However much I try or act,
I'm my own worst enemy,
I hate the person I am,
I hate the emotions I have.