Love of a Madman

I’m writing this for you tonight,

I’m writing to let you know,

I’m writing about a secret I have,

About feelings I never show… 

You stir emotions in me,

Feelings just for you. 

It’s time to let you know right now

And hope you have them to.

I look at you, I’m feeling brave,

But the words - they will not come. 

Instead I pause and hesitate,

My soul turns me so numb. 

You smile and I begin to wonder,

As I turn and walk away; 

Can you read my mind, my heart? 

Do you know what I want to say? 

One day I’ll tell you, I know I will,

And my feelings for you will be shown. 

But in this dream you laugh at me,

Because I’m sure you’ve always known… 

I expect to be ignored by you,

Why would I be in your heart? 

But in doubt I live through each day,

Ripping my sanity apart. 

I don’t know what to do today,

I’m so sure you don’t love me. 

But until I know for certain,

Hope is all I see. 

But hope and doubt - they do not mix,

They’ve driven me insane. 

She loves me, she loves me not,

My doubt, my hope, my pain… 

Kill me now, take my life,

That’s what this gun will do. 

But first I need to tell you this,

To whisper ‘I love you’…