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The Gang:
The New Guys
New York City, NY - Felix Dalen September 3rd
"So it's just this week, and then . . . " I shrugged. My thick shaggy
brown hair was whipping me in the face. The balcony of our 9th-floor
apartment always seemed windy. I wasn't really sure why. These were just
passing thoughts, things I tried to think about to be distracted from the
news I was giving - what seemed, to me, the worst news I could give in my
life.
Breanna Paris was leaning over the railing, and even though her back
was to me, I knew she was crying. Bre had come in for the week - she lived
about an hour away and spent most long weekends, large chunks of the
summer, and almost any other break here in the city with me. She was my
girlfriend - we'd been dating for three years, having got together about
nine months before her aunt and my dad decided to tie the knot. (How's that
for crazy?) I'd lived in New York City my whole life. I knew without a
doubt that what I'd miss most was Breanna.
"So they're moving your dad," Breanna repeated. "I'm going home
Sunday . . . school starts Monday . . . when are you moving?"
I shrugged. "Like Tuesday, I think. My dad doesn't want me to miss
any of the school year." My eyes rolled. "Sophomore year and all . . ."
She was nodding, but only on the outside. I could see her eyes. Pain.
"He didn't have any say in it?"
I hung my head. "Yeah, Bre, he did - and this is what he chose. It'll
be a million times better for him, I think. Lots more money, less
traveling. Stuff like that." I sighed. The news had come to me this
afternoon, when Dad got home from work, only ten minutes before I'd left to
pick up Breanna from the train station. I'd waited until we were back here
to tell her, but she'd known. She'd known something was wrong. That girl
can read me like a book. Sometimes it's scary.
"That's not fair," she muttered. "He's not losing his girlfriend."
Breanna's voice trembled, and I turned her around so she could cry on my
chest instead of over the rail.
"We've got this week," I murmured to her. "And then, it won't be a
hundred percent different - we've done it long distance this long, you
know? You can fly out and spend all of Christmas Break and Spring Break
with me. All of next summer."
Denise and Dad were cool with that - they've never stopped Breanna
and I from spending time together, and never had a problem with her staying
with us. They trusted us. I didn't have the option to go out to Breanna's -
her sister would never have it. Bre lived with her sister and brother-in-
law who were quite a bit older than us.
"Yeah."
I could hear the doubt in her voice, so I held her tightly. It's not
right, I found myself thinking. Why does the guy have to be the strong one?
I want to break down and cry, too. But I held myself together, if for
nothing but Bre's sake. I'd have plenty of time for that when she wasn't
around. When I lived a million miles away.
She looked at me - the fresh tears had stopped, but her face was
streaked. I gently wiped away the smudged mascara. "Before you go," Breanna
said in a low voice, "do you think we could get any . . . you know . . .
alone time?"
I glanced at the glass door which led to the living room. It was
closed. In the three years since Breanna and I had been together, we'd
never really been very physical together. We hugged, kissed, cuddled, and
came away with the rare hickey . . . that was about it. "What do you mean?"
I asked her.
She was eying the door too. Part of our immaculate celibacy was due
to the fact that if we were together, it was in her aunt's/my father's
house. The only real make-out sessions we'd found were in movie theaters
and that was the exception of our time together, not the norm. Breanna
didn't want anyone but me to hear what she was about to say.
"I think it's time," she told me. "We've been together for a million
years, you're the one I want to be with forever. If I had to pick now,
today, I'd marry you." Breanna said this easily - we both acknowledged that
we were in love, and were mutually convinced that we were destined for one
another. The beginning of what she'd said - the I think it's time part -
that was new. I wasn't absolutely positive I knew what she was talking
about, but I had my suspicions.
"You saying what I think you're saying?" I was whispering. My heart
was starting to race.
Breanna nodded. Her smile was beautiful, fresh, encouraging. "Where
can we go? This weekend, Friday or Saturday night, maybe."
I paused. "Cashus's," I said finally. "His parents are gone and his
brother was going to be throwing some giant back-to-school bash at their
place Saturday night." Laughs, coming out of my own mouth. "Everyone else
in our school has done it over there." Chris Matthews (Cashus) was my best
friend. Had been since first grade. He and Breanna were my best connection
to the outside world. If everyone was a planet in this giant galaxy,
creatures from Cashus and Bre's worlds are the only ones I'd call frequent
visitors.
We went inside after a few minutes, shared a kiss, and I sat in my
living room feeling different. Feeling larger and smaller at the same time.
The world was turning inside out, that was the problem.
Denise came in with her two sons, my stepbrothers Zack and Paul. They
are respectively eight and eleven years old. "Oh, hi, Breanna. Felix,
where's Harlin, do you know?"
"Kitchen," I replied. Denise trailed away to find my dad, and Zack
and Paul got involved in a video game race. Breanna and I looked at each
other, side by side, one inside the other, and yet oceans apart.
I felt my heart break, and I leaned over to give her a tender kiss on
the forehead. "You better not forget about me," I threatened good-
naturedly. It came out mournful sounding, and finally my body allowed two
tears to escape, one down each side. "I love you too much."
"It'll never happen," Breanna answered. We neither one knew in that
moment if she was telling the truth or not, but I didn't care right then. I
wrapped my arms around her and nothing else seemed to matter. We were a
single island there on the couch, tangled up in a dual hug. No one could
reach us. No one could touch us. And no one would ever break us apart.