Math Sex: Part XVIII

We did go downtown the next morning, and I hate to admit it but maybe I was wrong about s not working out together. It was a pleasant day outside with the weather starting to clear up and it was also nice to actually talk to Laurence, something we’d never actually tried doing before in much depth.

“Do you like music?” he asked me as we walked along the path through the cherry blossom trees.

“In what way, playing or listening?”

“Both, personally I’m not to good at playing it so I just listen.” He laughed.

“Well I can’t play very good either. And come to think of it I don’t listen much anymore.”

“Hmmm, well maybe we can go listen to some sometime. My friend’s dad is an editor for the Post and he hears about all kinds of concerts and stuff going on around here. We went to a few this past Christmas and they were pretty good.”

“That sounds interesting, haven’t been to many concerts. Um…I was wondering…about the card.”

“Yes?”

“What you said about some things, like the party. I just wanted to say it’s not your fault I left. What I mean to say is that I’m sorry I just up and left without saying anything to you, it was wrong of me.”

“That’s all right, I don’t mind so much. But I did sort of get carried away with your little game there. And it wasn’t the greatest party either; I usually don’t go to them very often.”

“Me neither, and it was just a game. I didn’t mean anything by it. Actually it just popped into my head randomly cause I got one of those dang emails for that goat weed stuff.”

“I know, besides sex isn’t such a big thing for me. You made me feel good and all but I hope you don’t take it to heart, what I said that is.”

“I won’t. And I am sorry for just leaving you like that. Maybe if I hadn’t things would be different, like me and Alex.” I muttered the last bit but he still heard which I think I wanted him to for some reason.

“Yeah, how are things going with you two?”

“Their okay I guess. I mean it hasn’t been very long and I’m hoping his over possessiveness will wear off because underneath he is a nice guy he just gets on my nerves every once in a while. Not that I don’t like him or anything it’s just awkward.”

“Why do you say awkward?”

“I never had a boyfriend before so I never actually got a sense of what I’m supposed to do if I don’t like something he does. Should I tell him or just hope it will pass? Or should I try and tell him lightly and see what he does?” I couldn’t believe I was walking next to a gorgeous guy whom I had inadvertently ‘let go’ and talking about my man troubles. But as it turns out he was a big help, or so I thought.

“Well there are no rules or anything about this stuff; it all depends on your personality. If it bothers you I think you should tell him. After all this stage in the relationship is supposed to help you learn more about the other person likes or dislikes.”

“Interesting thought. Your probably the only guy I know who would talk about something like this. How do you know so much anyways?”

“Experience. That and I had a cousin who used to go to school near us and so we saw him a lot. He used to sit me down and explain the facts of life to me from time to time. He got married to this really nice girl and so I figured he knew what he was talking about.”

“That’s nice.” I commented. We stopped and sat down on a bench for a while and looked out over the rather choppy water. We talked a bit more and then decided what to do next when my phone rang.

“Hello?” I said.

“Jaqi, where are you? I’ve been trying to find you!” it was Alex. What was I gonna tell him? I couldn’t tell him I was out with Laurence because I didn’t know how he’d react to that.

“I’m downtown at the museums. Getting information for a paper I have to write.” I lied.

“Well I called your house and your parents said you went out with some guy and they didn’t know where you were going. Who are you with?”

“A friend.” I stated and I knew he was going to ask me who but I didn’t answer.

“Alex what’s wrong? I’m just out with a friend right now getting information for this paper we have to write. You’re acting like I got kidnapped.” I raised my voice getting frustrated.

“Sorry I was just wondering. Will you be back in time to go see a movie tonight?”

“I’m not going to say yes because I don’t know. If I get back early I’ll let you know, if not maybe some other time.” I sighed. This was getting out of control now and I could feel I couldn’t stop myself from throwing myself into total oblivion.

“That’s okay, perhaps next weekend. I’ll see you tomorrow sweet.”

“Bye.” And I hung up.

“You didn’t tell him.” Laurence said looking over at me.

“I’m gonna tell him in person, not over the phone while I’m out with you.”

“You lied to him to. Are you sure you two are doing okay? Maybe you should back off for a while longer.” He suggested. And I agreed with him. Maybe we just needed to get to know each other better before taking that step. On the other hand, maybe we really weren’t meant for each other.

“You’re right. But right now I just don’t want to think about him. I don’t understand why I feel so horrible about him.” I felt my throat start to catch and had to struggle with myself not to let that tear forming in my eye slide down my cheek.

“Hey, are you okay? Come on let’s go do something else for a while, get your mind off the subject.” Laurence put his arm around my shoulder, in a friendly way, and started leading me back to where the car was parked.

“Maybe you’re hungry.” He thought aloud.

“A little.” I admitted. So we went to a small restaurant near the campus and got some food. I started to feel better and more relaxed as evening set in but I couldn’t help but think about Alex and me from time to time.

“Would you like to see my new apartment?” he asked after we’d finished eating.

“Sounds like fun, you think you could drop me off at home afterwards?”

“Sure, come on let’s go. And here let me pay don’t worry about it.” He quick picked up the bill and paid with a credit card. I’d never thought of getting a credit card. My parents had always warned me about them because you tend to spend more money with them than without them. Besides what would I use one for right now?

Laurence’s new apartment was small but nice. There was one bedroom, a kitchen/dining room, and a living room. Oh and of course the bathroom but that comes standard, I think.

“So what do you think? I still haven’t finished unpacking yet but we’re getting there.” He and I sat on his sofa looking over the boxes, some empty some unpacked and some still taped up.

“It’s looking good.” I told him. We sat and looked at his semi-progress for a while before I reminded him that I needed to go home. He drove me home and this time he waited to see that I got inside okay before driving off.

There was such a change of events between Alex and Laurence that I really wasn’t sure what to think. All of a sudden I’m avoiding Alex and Laurence is the perfect gentleman. What’s a girl to do?

What I did know I needed to do was talk to Alex about laying low on the relationship level for a little while longer until I sorted things out. Who knows maybe Laurence was just putting on face and was waiting for me to let Alex go. So until I knew for sure what I wanted to do I would keep them both as “friends”. Obviously this is going to be harder than I’m trying to make myself believe it is because already Alex has dropped completely off my radar screen and Laurence is dominating. What have I gotten myself into?

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A/N: Sorry it took me so long to get this lousy chapter out guys. I feel like this story is going nowhere. Maybe when I finish it I will go back over and make it better. I’m glad so many people were still reading this last time. Now I hope some of you are still there.

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