Once again, everything is getting to me,
But I'm acting as who I want to be.
I'm watching it all fall apart,
Watching me ruin it -- for me.
Smile and nod and laugh,
The cycle begins anew.
I go home and to my room,
And I begin to think about you.
I know that I can't,
I know that I won't.
I know that I know,
And I know that I don't.
I remember how I was,
I remember back then.
But somehow it still happens,
Somehow it all crumbles again.
I'm drowning in emotions,
I need to let go.
I'm drowning in feelings,
I need you to know.
I know that I can't,
I know that I won't.
I know that I know,
And I know that I don't.
I find myself looking for answers,
That I can never hope to find.
I guard myself from the world,
Locked in my mind.
I find myself falling apart at the seems,
Still everything is perfect, to you.
I'm still the perfect person,
The happy girl you knew.
I know that I can't,
I know that I won't.
I know that I know,
And I know that I don't.
Everything is falling again,
Everything but the tears.
You'd think I'd have changed,
But I've been scarred for years.
So I still play the part,
And my eyes still don't cry.
So I still hide from my feelings,
But the heart doesn't lie.