Always In Your Shadow

I can't remember where I went
To be alone
Who was there with me
I remember nothing
All this time I've wanted
And I've hated
But then I guess
Then I guess
You're all that I've got
Always and forever
No, he doesn't matter.
All that I remember
I can't forget
'Cause I can still love
Somewhere deep inside
Even you're above me now
I just want to scream and shout
But the words keep running away
Believe me
Someday
That's what I hate-
My own apathy
Someone speak to me again
Someone break down these defences
I can't live without…
I seem to have lost a part of me
Give me some clarity
I need it on a silver platter
Is that asking too much?
There's nothing more fucked-up than
Me.

-By Jade Black. Feedback's greatly appreciated. Please review.