You really don't know how much you've hurt me..
And I would probably never tell.
Because it's how I feel around you...
That makes me not give a care in the world.

It's hard for me, untill I understand..
Because When I look at you I see so, many options..
None of them are turned on..
And will forever be left off.

Because you don't believe in mixing races..
Or loving me for who I am..
I've tried to see all the possiblities..
And I've made so many plans..

But there all destroyed and gone for good
and will never be opened again..
Everything I thought of was for you..
That past week, that slipped from my lips..

Words I feel, hurt more than anything..
A heart that will not let go..
A memory filled with happiness.
And time I thought would never end.

I'm crying now..
Because it's all so true.
And every time I think of you.
I blame myself for not being "you".

In that I mean, what you would choose.
What you would take and grab, not loose.
You wouldn't let "her" slip away.
or ever see her cry.
Because I know.. Your not that way, your just a perfect guy.

I love you more than anything..
And I don't see how, you got away.
And then again I hear those words..
and yet I feel betrayed.

I'm hopeless when it comes to you.
Because I've softened more than ever.
And I never ment to do that.
But I lost myself in you..
Possibly forever?

Is there ever and end?
Is there ever the truth?
..Could I ever...be with you?
I hate sounding pathetic.

Because it's the worst thing I get at.
No one can help me but myself.
But I don't want to lose the things I've gained.
And yet whats gained..still remains the same.

Picture day is tomorrow though.
I will not be seeing there.
BUt I will where the shirt You pissed me off in..
But you probably don't even remember
God obviously didn't want me to have you or spare..

My third time my fourth?
Your not the first to break my heart.
You might not be my last.
But at the moment you are right now.

And I can't help but love you now..
And I know i'm still so young.
I shouldn't even be thinking of love..
But damn I've lost to the game forbidden for the young.

:'( sorry..this was just to cover the things I feel about.. I don't know what more to say.
Please review if you like...I don't care, it's just my personal stuff anyway..

~(my quote)~
~so...Simple...yet...So...Fragile..~