I feel like I'm falling back into the spider's web. The aura of fresh goodness, strength, love and happiness has transformed into a mass of dark, petty, unhealthy and unattractive negativity. That place hidden on the bottom shelf of my essence was gone but not forgotten and now it seems to have journeyed it's way back into my life. The side of myself that is now hidden from the world but lingers behind me like a shadow haunting my memories. I want it to leave and never come back. But part of it has, and I hate every word it says, every thought it thinks, I loathe. I'm scared of the shadow behind me, but I sit here as it engulfs me, and wait for it to take me over, feeling helpless - I never want to go back there again. 'There' is a symbol of unexpressed hurt and anger, brooding like a can of shaken up soft drink. Though it's contents are not sweet - they are sour, and inhabit a mixture of anguish and hate. I ran away from it and woke up to life; a fresh morning breeze and a jug of water over the head, and I found out what it was like to be happy. I have taken one step towards that web, and my shadow will catch up with me if I stay within reach. Like a film of dust lies the darkness embellished on my character as integrity waits impatiently below. Fair winds will blow the gloom away, and my good side will emerge once more. My insides will soon match my outsides.