You are my greatest friend; the most wonderful gift I have ever received.

It darkens my soul to see you sad; to feel your pain. I only want your happiness, for it is what gives me joy. When your soul is glad, mine is also. When you cry, my heart bleeds for you. I feel every ounce of your pain, even if I don’t understand it. I share your every bittersweet moment, every tear and every bit of anger. I want you to know I will always be there.

I revel in your joy. When you are happy, my heart sings. Even if I don’t understand why something makes you happy, I will indulge you, for your happiness is all I desire in this world. I want to share all of your pleasures, take part in every triumph, no matter how small. I want to be there when you blossom, when it is your time to shine. I want you to know how proud you make me and how much I enjoy your company.

I fear losing you. I know there are other important people in your life. They may mean even more to you than me and I don’t begrudge you this. I understand that I am in no way perfect and there are things about me which must aggravate you to know end. I find myself wondering why you haven’t given up on me yet. I do things so terrible without thinking first. My life is screwed up -I am screwed up- and you don’t give up. I’m terrified of waking one morning and finding it was all just a dream.

I need you. Sometimes the world seems so large and I so small. When my heart trembles in fear, I need you there to comfort me. I need you to listen; to care about my hopes and fears. When the rest of the world turns away, I want you to be the one I can count on. When I am lost and alone, you go on to lead me home. My heart knows no fear when you are by my side. I feel as if there is nothing we can’t do, so long as we’re together.

I miss you. You’re away from me and I feel alone. I know this is hard for you too, but we both must spread our wings. This is a simple fact of life. However, it seems you’ve learned how so much better than I. Without you, I am nothing. I have crashed and burned, and I am afraid you don’t feel my fire. I feel like I’m being left behind, as if I have to run after you, yelling for you to wait for me.

I worry over you. When you come to me with problems and I can’t make them better, I wonder if what I said or did was the right thing. I never want to be the cause of your suffering, yet I have on more than one occasion. When you are sad and I can’t say anything to cheer you up, when you do things of which I may not approve, I become a nervous wreck.

I can’t help but wonder what you’re thinking as you read this. I sound very cliché and trivial, don’t I? Or am I not even making sense? I want to tell you everything, but I can’t. This is as far as my heart allows me to proceed right now. Someday, I will open my soul to you and tell you what you don’t already know.

Someday, when my heart grows wings and soars higher than ever before.

Someday, when I reach the dizzying heights to which your soul has flown.

Someday…