How do you take back what you've done
How do you take back the guilt
How do you take back the pain
When you've lived with it for so long

I've carried so much with me through the years
And I want to take it all back
But I can't
And it's killing me inside

Living a life of abuse, mistrust, and betrayal
It is truly beautiful
It is a beautiful thing
Can you take it all away

I am dying inside
Forever searching for the correct answers
Forever seeking the one that will break me free
Like a prisoner awaits his freedom or parole due to a life long sentence

I am that prisoner who awaits his escape
That one perfect moment when I can let it all go
Just set me free
My regrests are so deep, so secret, and so far back

I can't remember how long I have held it all inside
Waiting for that perfect day when I can let it all go
I want to bad to tell everyone
To scream out what I've done

My family would disown me
Never would they look at me the same or speak to me again
Not that I have many that'd still claim me today, cause I don't
I'm lucky who does still claim me does

I suppose this is just one step in the healing process
God please help me
I am calling out to you
To anyone that is listening

Please help me
This is my cry
Summed up in one poem
Please be patient, don't hurt me

All of my scars are horribly visible
If you would only look
Can't you see me bleeding
What's happening to me

I'm so scared
I don't know what to do
If you could only guide me
Save me from certain death; from myself

You will never be able to fully understand what this poem is supposed to make you feel
It's killing me though
My feelings are too deep
Too painful as are my memories