How long have I been alive? Am I even alive? I'm , Sixteen years now. Wow, you really don't notice how boring your life is until you've lived as long as I have. I haven't lived that long. But you get the general idea. Just so you know, my name's Toushi Shouten. Weird name right? I know. It's not like I had a say in it though. Basically, my life's been okay I guess. My mom and dad are divorced, I live with my mom. In my opinion, she's less lazy and more organized. I go to a private school on the northern side of town. Yep, really fancy. Oh, and I'm not the bravest guy in the world.I might even go to say that I'm pretty pathetic when it comes to certain things. I have blonde hair and turquoise eyes which I have to thank my father for. The ladies just love my turquoise eyes. But that's beside the point. I'm sure you're tired of my rambling right .

My alarm clock blinked an uncharacteristic seven-fifteen before I had to shut it off. Any minute now I would hear my mom yelling up the stairs for me to wake up.
"Toushi! Get up now!" Didn't I tell you? I know how everything works around here. Just goes to show you how pathetic life is for me. I groaned and rolled over onto the floor. My usual morning routine was set and I was ready regardless of what the day had in store for me. How can I tell this by just falling on my ass every morning? I have no idea. I scratched my head and held onto my bedside table as I wobbled to my feet slowly. I yawned and walked into my tiny bathroom. Pictures of half naked women hung on the walls opposite of the toilet and the shower. I wiped the remaining sleep from my eyes as I turned on the shower. I looked over at one of the posters and winked at it.
"Morning lovely." I smiled. I removed my night shirt and scratched my side. I let my boxers fall to the floor as I climbed into the shower. The water felt great as it slid down my body, the final level to my awakening. I stepped out and shook my head vigorously, sending water everywhere. I whistled a soft tune as I wrapped a towel about my waist and opened my dresser drawer. I pulled my uniform pants out of the top drawer and tossed them on my bed. I let the towel fall from my waist as I slipped on a clean pair of plaid boxers. I retrieved my uniform shirt and began buttoning it, while still whistling the same tune. It was some weird song that no one ever listens to anymore. Why I was whistling I'm sure. Next the pants. I hate those damn pants. I wriggled into them and, here comes the hard part, I zipped them up and struggled with the button. About an hour later, just kidding, it wasn't that long. I'd say it really only took me five minutes at the latest. Well, after the war of the uniform pants button, I scrambled around for my shoes. I found them under my bed and I as was putting them on, while standing I might add, I fell through my sliding rice paper door. It made an ear-splitting rip which aroused the attention of my mother.
"Damn it!" I cursed. As I rubbed my injured head. The one on my shoulders you pervert.
"Toushi? Is everything ok?" She yelled up the stairs. Busted.I could hear her footsteps making their way up the stairs and I seriously think my heart stopped for a minute.
"Everything's fine mom! No need to come up! I'll be down in a minute." I stood up quickly as I slid the door open so that the rip wasn't visible.
"Okay Toushi. I cooked your favorite muffins." I inhaled in a great sigh of relief as the smell of banana-nut muffins filled my nostrils.
"I'll just fix it when I get home." I mumbled to myself. I examined myself in my mirror hastily and then grabbed my schoolbag from beside my bedside table. I looked back at my poor excuse for a room and then I trotted downstairs. I slipped into the kitchen from the living room and was greeted by my over joyous mother.
"Why hello dear. Good morning to you!" Now don't get me wrong, I love my mom, but I'm sure no momma's boy. My mother was a rather plump woman with graying brunette hair which she always kept in a neat little bun that sat on top of her head. She was kind and extremely friendly, that's why I can't find a reason as to why she and my father split. In my opinion she wore too much makeup for a woman of .But I don't think that was the reason.
"Good morning mother." I smiled lackadaisically as I grabbed a muffin from the tray and bit down into it.
"Did you sleep well?" She smiled politely as she watched me eat attentively.
"Yep, same as always. Well I'm out. Later mom." I kissed her cheek and turned the knob to leave.
"Have a good day at school son." She smiled almost unwillingly. I nodded as I shut the door behind me. I was used to my mother's sad puppyish behavior every time I left for school. Like I said, it was all part of my basic routine. I sighed as I sat on the bench at the bus stop. I was greeted by my all-around best friend, Shinwa Tora. Shinwa's seventeen-years- old. He's got a lot of wisdom on his shoulders for someone who's as immature and horny as he is. His voice was remarkably deep and had a mysterious air to it that all the girls loved. He had navy blue hair and red satin eyes, which in my opinion is quite rare. Wouldn't you agree? He also had the slightest trace of a beard growing. He wrapped his arm about my shoulder and pressed his face close to mine.
"Morning buddy. Sleep well?" He yawned lazily and bit and sucked playfully at the nap of my neck. Oh, I forgot to tell you, he's a bisexual. But he does this sort of thing all the time, so I'm used to it. You wouldn't be able to tell he was bi just by looking at him and talking to him though. I pushed him away.
"Dude, quite it." I grimaced as I wiped his saliva from my neck, "If there's a hickey there, I swear you're gonna be dead."
"Nah, I didn't do it long enough."
"You've got problems my friend." I laughed.
"Ha-ha you have no idea." He smiled as he stretched out on the bench. Tsuki Uta, another one of our friends joined us at the bus stop. She sat on the bench next to the sprawled out Shinwa. Tsuki was extremely hot. I've had a crush on her as long as I can remember. She was sixteen like me. Her long silver hair fell around her shoulders and splayed out onto the bench as she gazed at the sky with her beautifully, ravishing purple eyes. I noticed that she was wearing a sky blue broach just above her bosom. It's at a time like this when a guy starts to think about naughty things. The key is not to get too involved or certain things WILL happen. Yep, there it is. I took my bag off my back and placed it in my lap, trying not to be too obvious.
"Morning Toushi, Shinwa." She smiled sweetly. Shinwa smirked as he straightened himself out on the bench. Her voice was like sweet honey to my ears. I loved hearing it.
"Morning," I replied. Shinwa looked over at me and his eyes trailed down to my schoolbag.
"That wasn't there before." He smiled slyly.
"What wasn't?" Tsuki looked over. The last thing I needed was for her to see my erection.
"Nothing, it's nothing. I was just getting something out of my bag." I smiled nervously. Tsuki turned her attention back to the sky as she sighed.
"Sure you were." Shinwa smiled sarcastically as he tugged at my bag.
"Quite it, I'm serious!" I muttered.
"Ha-ha, I know you better than you know yourself." He winked at me. I turned my head so I wouldn't see the slick expression on his face. The bus pulled to a stop in front of us and I waited until Tsuki rose and walked to the bus and I swear I could hear an angelic chorus. The way she swayed her hips was always desirable and pleasing to watch. After her Shinwa got up and finally me. I sat down at a vacant seat next to the window and I was accompanied by Shinwa. I could feel his hand slide into my lap and work its way up to my crotch. Finally resting there before he started massaging between my legs slowly.
"What the hell are you doing!?" I hissed as I smacked his hand away. He had never been so daring as to do that before.
"Comforting you." He smiled wisely.
"'t do it again." I grumbled as I once again placed my bag in my lap.
"Ha-ha you need to lighten up buddy." He laughed as he smacked my back.
"Not with you." I smiled back at him.
"Ah shit, there goes that plan." He snapped his fingers. Now don't get me wrong, Shin's gay habits really don't disturb me that much but it does seem a little strange that most of his energy is spent on trying to flirt with me.
"Shin, could I ask you a question?" I inquired as I turned slightly to meet his gaze.
"Sure, fire away." He smiled as he eyed a foxy girl that was coming onto the bus.
"Do you like me?" I asked. His satin red eyes met mine.
"Of course I do if it wasn't already too obvious." He smiled as he hugged me earnestly and blew lightly into my ear. He always did this so I didn't try to jerk away.
"Okay, okay, get off!" I said as I pushed him back into his seat. He laughed. I looked back to see Tsuki engaged in a meaningful conversation with another guy. I saw her giggle at something he said and he leaned closer to her. Jealousy flared in me and I growled lowly, hating every shred of that new guy's existence. Come to think of it, I had never seen him before. He ran a hand through his scarlet hair nervously as he whispered something in her ear. She giggled again and replied. Damn it! I wish I knew how to read lips. I noticed that he had red eyes just like Shinwa did. He seemed harmless enough but I really didn't want him messing around with Tsuki. He had a light build, but anyone could see that he had muscle, but not that much to make him look freakishly disgusting. He attractive. Whoa.I didn't just say that. Nothing to see here folks! Move along!
"Who're you checking out?" Shinwa smiled slyly when he noticed me looking back.
"Look who Tsuki's sitting with. And I'm NOT checking him out!" I folded my arms angrily.
"Wow," He laughed.
"What? What?" I asked as I tried to see what he was looking at. They were still engaged in deep conversation, so I turned back around.
"He's a looker isn't he? Hot. Tsuki just adds to the hotness over there." Shin licked his lips.
"I admit, he is attractive. I just wish he wasn't hanging around Tsuki like that."
"I bet he's delicious." Shin turned back around before he licked his lips again.
"I don't even want to know what you meant by that." I said as I took my bag out of my lap and placed it on my back. The bus screeched to a halt and opened the doors. As we filed out of the bus I felt a strong hand grasp my ass firmly. I assumed it was Shin because he was always groping me in the halls. I turned around and indeed it was Shin.
"Keep going baby." He cooed into my ear. We started attracting stares so I just glared at him and kept moving. When we were off the bus, I decided to wait for Tsuki and the mysterious newcomer. I growled in my throat but seeing as how Shin was standing next to me I did my best to keep quiet. If I wasn't so pathetic when it comes to stuff, I would've marched right up to that guy and given him a piece of my mind. Tsuki came off the bus first in all her extreme radiance.
"Why hello there guys!" She waved. As she jumped off the last step her breasts jumped slightly. Shin looked at me and smiled mischievously. Then the stranger exited next. His hair swayed lightly in the wind and he caught it through his right palm. His eyes met us and he smiled nicely.
"Tsuki, who might these two be?" He asked. His voice was deep also but it had a distinct mellowness about it that made it unique.
"Oh, pardon my rudeness. Guys, this is Seigi Shouri. He just transferred from a school in Tokyo. He was telling me how different things are here as opposed to where he used to live. I told him he'll love Kyoto much more." She smiled and a huge part of me melted slightly. Good, so they just met. He better not get fresh with her!
"I'm Shinwa Tora. Nothing really special you should know about me. Well maybe that I'm an extrovert, other than that it really doesn't matter. Nice eyes. Never met anyone with the same eye color as me before." He smiled and Seigi smirked daringly.
"Nice to meet you too." He bowed lightly, letting his hair fall below his eyes. This gave off certain vivacity that I liked.
"And I'm Toushi Shouten. I can't really think of anything to say right now." I laughed as I put my hands behind my head.
"Nice to meet you too. Oh and Shinwa, just so you know, I'm a bit of an extrovert myself. Well, I'll be seeing ya. I'm sure of it. Later Tsuki." He waved and smirked handsomely. We all waved and walked up to the school.

"God he was hot wasn't he?" Shin asked as he bit into his salami sandwich. It was lunchtime and as far back as I can remember we always ate lunch together. Not in a relationship way together, but as friends. I know what you're thinking. Stop it.
"I'm not that way; I've told you that before." I sighed as I sipped my fifth soda and found myself suddenly really drowsy.
"Yeah I guess. Those eyes and his voice were delectable. Mmm, now I know he's delicious." He smiled to himself.
"Oh god that's nasty." I said before I took another sip of my soda. I looked around the lunch room and spotted Seigi sitting alone reading a book thoughtfully. He brushed his hair out of his eyes and I thought I saw him smirk slightly.
"Who're you staring at?" Tsuki asked which snapped me back into reality. I shook my head slowly and turned to look at Tsuki as she sat down beside me.
"Oh, hey Tsuki. I wasn't looking at anybody." I lied. She bit into her sandwich and chewed cutely. Wow, even the way she chewed was sexy. I watched her closely, all the while glancing over at Seigi.
"Do you want something?" She asked after she noticed I was staring.

"Oh," Shades of red crossed my cheeks. The ones on my face thank you. "No I don't sorry. Um, but why is Seigi sitting alone?" I asked her and she looked at me with her beautiful eyes.
"I knew you were staring at someone." Laughed Shinwa.
"I wasn't staring!" I hissed.
"Seigi told me that he likes to be alone most of the time. And that some people don't understand him very well. I guess it's a good reason to want to be by yourself." She said as she spooned potato salad into her mouth. I glanced back at the place where he was sitting, but he was gone. I leaned on my hand and sipped more of my soda.
"I don't know about you guys but, I sure am stuffed." Smiled Shin as he belched loudly which alerted the tables around us. He laughed and leaned back in his chair.
"I'm gonna go to the bathroom." I said suddenly as I stood up and crushed the empty soda can.
"Okay Toushi. But don't be bell rings in less than twenty minutes." Tsuki smiled as she glanced at the digital clock that was stationed down a hallway.
"I don't think it'll take him that long to piss Tsuki." Shin added. She blushed slightly as she looked at down at the table.
"Don't worry I won't be late." I smiled. My bladder was full and I just really had to piss. I walked briskly to the men's bathroom and headed straight for the urinal. It felt good to finally expel some urine. Notice how I'm not being crude about this. I'm pleased with myself. I washed my hands and I as I turned to leave I noticed that the door was locked.
"Ah fuck." I cursed as I struggled with the door. This was worse then the damn pants button war I had every morning.
"Sorry about that. I'll let you go before the bell rings. But I think we should talk a while." I heard a familiar, deep voice from behind me say. I turned to meet the sensitive eyes of Seigi.
"How'd you do this?" I asked as I pointed to the door.
"Anything's possible." He smirked as he held up a master key to the school.
", I didn't even see you in here! And how'd you get that?! Not even the teachers have master keys!"
"That, I can't tell you. Heh, I try and stay hidden. The world doesn't understand me, I like being alone." He placed a tender hand on the window and gazed outside. Why the hell was I being locked in a public men's restroom with him?! even; let me out of here!!
"I guess I shouldn't ask why." I said as I sat against the door.
"I'm alone in the world Toushi. My parents died when I was young. I made a living somehow. All my other relatives won't lend me a hand or 're too caught up in their lives to even think about me. Even when I was young they wouldn't help. Moving around a lot doesn't help the fact that I have almost no money either. It's my release though." He looked at me. My heart sank when I saw his eyes. They looked full of sadness and depression. It made me have great sympathy for this man standing in front of me. I decided I would change the subject to put a spin on things.
"Why'd you lock me in here?" I asked finally. Great genius, what next?
"I felt it was the only way to get you to stay long enough for us to talk. And also so no one would walk in on our conversation. I noticed you staring at me in the cafeteria. It was odd, so I guess I thought it best if I explained my situation to you. How old are you? I'm seventeen and will be eighteen in about three months."
"I'm sixteen; I'll be seventeen in about a month. Oh and I've got just one question for you." I added. Here was the moment of truth. I was going to ask him about Tsuki.
"Uh, sure go ahead." He said as he sat on the floor opposite of me.
"Do you and Tsuki have something going together?" He looked at me dumbly as if I had spoken in a different language.
"Are you fucking kidding me? Hah, we just met this morning. She's a sweet girl, but nah, I wouldn't date her. Why? You got something for her?" I blushed slightly.
"No way, we're just friends I swear."
"Yeah, that explains why you're blushing right?" He laughed. I covered my face.
"Whatever dude." I replied calmly. For a minute or two it, silence overtook us. I glanced at him but his attention seemed to be fixated on the floor. I could tell that recapping what had happened to him over the years was hurting him deep inside. It dug into the cut a little deeper each time he talked about it. I don't know why, but I knew that's what was happening to him. I felt sorry for making him feel like he was obligated to tell me. I got up slowly and walked over to him. He looked up at me with saddened eyes.
"Look," I started, "I didn't mean to hurt you in any way. I'm sorry." I sat down beside him.
"Don't apologize for it." He smiled understandingly. I couldn't help but blush lightly as I held his serene gaze in mine. Wow, what was happening.? He grabbed my sides and pushed me lightly onto the floor.
"Seigi, what're you doing.?" I asked as I looked at him dumbly.
"Ssshhh, don't worry." He slid on top of me and planted a warm kiss on my lips. Whoa, whoa, whoa! Any normal guy could see that this isn't normal. A normal guy would freak out and punch his face in and demand he be handed the key to his freedom. But for some reason unknown, I didn't. Was I afraid I was going to be raped? Not at all, sadly, I was willing. Before I knew it, my tongue was swimming in his mouth, ensnaring itself with his, tasting his sweet nectar. Shin was right in that sense that he thought he was delicious. My breathing started becoming rash as I thrashed with desire. Our kissing became so persistent that breathing soon became essential. I moaned lightly into his mouth and he released me from the kiss. I gasped for air and panted slowly as air filled my lungs again. I could feel his hands sliding down my thighs suddenly as he leaned in for another kiss. The sound of the bell ringing came to both our ears and he cursed as he stood slowly. There is no way that I was in the bathroom with him for twenty minutes. He lent me a hand and I wobbled over to the sink.
"We should go." I said as I washed my face in the sink quickly. He handed me a paper towel.
"I didn't think you'd go for something like that." He smirked as he combed his hair with his fingers.
"To tell the truth, I didn't either. You tell no one of this." I said as I pointed a finger in his face. He took it between his feathery lips and sucked it delicately and smirked at me.
"Whoa, stop that." I laughed as I yanked my finger away.
"I swear." He nodded.
"Good, thanks." I held out my hand.
"Don't mention it. I really should be thanking you." He grasped my hand firmly and handed me the master key.
"Won't you need this?" I asked.
"Nope." He said as he walked to the window. I could hear someone trying to open the door. I turned my back to him and walked over to the door.
"Where can I find you to give this back to-" I turned back to ask, but he was gone. I ran over to the now open window and looked down but there was no sight of him. "Creepy." I muttered to myself. I touched my lips lightly and stood dazed for minute before another harsh bang came at the door. I unlocked the door and quickly stashed the key in my back pocket. Five senior guys filed in and immediately reached into their pockets and lit cigarettes. They were in perfect synchronization. They decided to ignore me rather than pummel me with useless questions about why I was locked in the men's bathroom. I shrugged and headed back to my sixth period class. Why should I argue? As I headed back to class, the thought of the kiss came back into my mind. There was a lot of feeling behind it. He had meant it. Shinwa usually just kissed my cheek but I knew he was messing around with me. But there was something about Seigi that I liked. I smiled faintly. Then something snapped within my conscious. I had kissed another guy. Even been aroused by don't do that! shit, there is no fucking way that I'm gay! I glanced down the hall at the digital clock. I had three minutes to get back to class. I walked quickly down the emptying hallways until I reached my class. I slide the door open and walked inside. No one seemed to notice me as they were all involved with conversations of their own. I walked to the back of the class and sat where my things were laid out on my desk. I sighed as I leaned back.
"Sure took you a long time to piss buddy. Sure you didn't shit instead?" Asked a familiar voice.
"I think I would know Shin. I pissed. I was just wasting time in there I guess. " I grumbled. I immediately felt bad for saying that I was wasting time. Talking to Seigi wasn't a waste of time.
"Yeah okay, Tsuki was getting worried. She wanted me to go check on you. Hah, as if a man like you needed checking up on." He said as he leaned over and kissed my neck.
"I told you not to do that." I said as I tried to keep my breathing steady. Yet I didn't push him away just yet, he persisted. I could feel a moan well inside my throat so I pushed him away and gasped to hold it back.

"Wow, that's the first time I've ever gotten a positive reaction out of you." He looked at me really surprised. I opened my textbook quickly and pretended to look up something. I could feel his eyes on me so I looked up at him.
"What?" I asked.
"Did something happen to you while you were in the bathroom?" For a second I thought he knew what happened between me and Seigi. My heart skipped a beat and I buried my face in my book so he wouldn't see that I was blushing. 'I'm not a fag, I'm not a fag, I'm not a fag.' I kept telling myself.
"Nothing happened." I said in a muffled voice from behind my book. Oh yeah, real subtle of me. Tsuki noticed us talking and she excused herself from the chatty group of girls. I watched her closely as she bounded over to us. I couldn't help but watch her breasts as the bounced when she walked. She sat down in an empty desk in front of me and smiled.
"Are you okay Toushi? You were gone an awful long time." My heart skipped another beat. Did she know about me and Seigi?
"Yeah I'm fine, I just decided to stay back a little longer that's all." I smiled from behind the book but it was a vain attempt at reassuring her.
"Okay, if you say so." She smiled her perfect smile and little naughty thoughts danced around in my head. I shook slightly and lowered the book into my lap. I was going to ask her about Seigi.
"Tsuki, do you-" I began but was interrupted when the bell rung a second time and Mrs. Megami stepped in. Tsuki ran back over to her seat as did everyone else. Mrs. Megami was a beautiful woman with long black hair that curled on the ends. Her eyes were a verdant green and her body would please a god. She wore glasses that made her look extremely intelligent. I'd say about half of all the guys were madly in love with her. Sadly, she was married. Go figure right? Today she wore an open white blouse with a cross choker and a blue and green plaid mini-skirt with black knee-high stilettos. She always wore something sexy like that, even if minis were forbidden.
"Good morning class." She smiled heavenly and every guy jubilantly answered her back with a "Good Morning". I even thought I saw some guys drool onto their desks. The females in the class were never too thrilled about seeing her because she made the guys swoon.
"God she's hot." Shinwa whispered over at me. I nodded as I watched her walk over to the board and I swear I could see her thong as she leaned upwards to write the lesson plan. I wasn't the only guy to notice either.
"Wow, nice ass." I heard one guy whisper to his friends and they nodded in agreement. Maybe this was why mini-skirts were banned.
"Okay class," She smiled as she came back down on her feet. All the guys sighed and instinctively placed their books or binders in their laps. It was a daily ritual. "Today I thought we'd start off with a pop quiz! Pencils and paper out!" She smiled happily. We all groaned and reached into our bags and did as we were told. She handed out the question sheets and sat at her desk in the front of the class.
"You have exactly thirty minutes to complete this. Good luck. You may start now." She sat down and busied herself with papers on her desk. I looked over at Shinwa who tapped his temple with his pencil as he smiled at me. I shook my head and smiled back. As I went over the quiz the first time, the memory of Seigi's kiss came back. Why it came to me at this moment, I didn't know. But now was not the perfect time to reminisce about it. I tried going over the quiz again but I couldn't concentrate. I was too focused on Seigi to focus on a damn history quiz. His sensual touch and the way his feather soft lips had been against mine. The taste of him flowing back into my head. I quivered with longing. I shook my head and went over my quiz a third time, but it was a futile attempt. I remembered the handsome smirk he made when something amused or interested was more than I could take. I slammed my pencil down and stood up.
"I'M NOT A FAG!" I yelled and everyone gasped and turned to look at me. I turned a scarlet red as I looked around the classroom at the stares I was getting. They were all bewildered and what looked like amusement spread across their faces. My eyes rested on Tsuki's. She looked dazed and confused, her mouth hanging open slightly.
"Is there a problem Mr. Shouten?" Mrs. Megami asked as she stood. I looked down beside me at Shin whose mouth was hanging open as well. I could feel tears welling in my eyes. I had never been so embarrassed in my life. I covered my face with my arm and I ran out of the classroom. I ran as fast as my legs could carry me as I removed my arm and let the tears slide down my face. I just had to run, run away from their hideous stares.