I wanna get it all out,
All the anger pent up inside,
A complicated sadness around my mind,
I don't want it anymore.

It's ruining my life,
Blocking my love,
I just wanna die,
Get it all over with.

But I love my friends,
My boyfriend too,
I don't wanna let it go,
Let it all fall through.

When I scream,
It all comes out,
All the blocked emotions,
It's like a dream,
It all comes out,
With mixed motions.

When anyone starts,
I just wanna smash their face,
When I erupt,
Run,run little piggy run.

But no one sees,
No one's bothered,
Apart from the two I have,
Had for years.

It has no meaning,
Why I'm so sad,
Memories are fleeing,
It's just too bad.

Why there isn't any cure,
Not for me, anymore,
I just want to be loved,
Loved until goes BOOM my core.

I wanna live,
Just a normal life,
Not have the sadness,
Nor the strife,
I wanna see the world for once,
With opens eyes,
No pessimistic thoughts.

I wrote this after I found out it's not clinical depression I have...It's
Endogenous Depression...:( It won't go away..:'( Now my boyfriend hates me
probably cos he's always ignoring me and I'm just sadder than ever...:(